KAILYN'S POV
Another sleepless night asking God how I'm gonna pay these bills, and was now another day trying to make some little change. As I got out of bed and stepped into my small shower, I basked in the hot water and tried to stop thinking about how long I'll have it. And with that, my tears start again. My family was still in Saint Louis and tried their hardest to convince me to stay with them, but my damn pride wouldn't let me. I wanted to move to the Big Apple, become psychiatrist to the stars, graduate from NYU, live comfortably, have a few kids, be happy, and now look at me. Besides my friend Mikayla, I have no one and definitely no money. I've had a few clients over the past couple of years but they weren't making much and I didn't require them to. Sometimes, Mikayla will call and offer me some money, but once again my pride wouldn't allow me too.
As I got out the shower, I checked my calendar to see if I had any appointments, and as usual it was nothing. *Ring* *Ring*
Kailyn: Hello?
Mikayla: Man why you so dead? (chuckles) You better wake yo ass up I got good news!
Kailyn: If it's got anything to do with you giving me money, then hang up now.
Mikayla: It's not even about that this time! I got you an appointment and a big one at that, you remember Marvin friend Mashawn?
Kailyn: Don't they play football together?
Mikayla: Yeah and he crazy as hell, but that's a story for another time but anyway he needed help with the cops said Marv said he would bail him out as long as he went to see you.
Kailyn: Mikayla I don't need your charity.
Mikayla: Listen to me alright...... SHUT THE FUCK UP AND TAKE THE MONEY! I understand you wanna be independent and yada yada yada but damn you need help and you not letting nobody help you. Please as your friend, I need you to do this and accept this Kailyn. I don't want my best friend out here on these streets cause she can't accept help.
Kailyn: Look, I'm sorry Mikayla, it's just been real tense lately and I appreciate the help I really do.
Mikayla: I know, but you better be getting ready! Today gone be a good day.
Kailyn: Alright I will thanks and love ya girl.
Mikayla: Yeah, yeah I know. *hangs up*
I plopped on the bed and placed my head in my hands and silently cried. I just hope that this won't go bad like I expect it. I really don't.
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MASHAWN POV
The music blared in the speakers as I smoked my freshly rolled blunt and rapped along to the words of J. Cole
I SAID TO THE WINDOW TO THE WALL
MY NIGGAS RIDE WHEN I CALL
GOT BITCHES ALL IN MY MIND
FUCK NIGGAS BLOCKING MY SHINE
I KNOW THE REASON YOU FEEL THIS WAY
I KNOW JUST WHO YOU WAN'BE
SO EVERYDAY I THANK THE LORD UPSTAIRS
THAT I AINT YOU AINT ME
GET OFF MY DICK
The woman dancing in front of me grinded on my lap as I continued to smoke my blunt. This time I had me a white girl with long blonde extentions, big double D breast that were obviously fake but I didn't care. I told myself after that craziness yesterday, I ain't fuckin' with black girls no more, them bitches talk too damn much. But white girls, they submissive, know when to stop talking, and willing to let a nigga do whatever he want. And a nigga do mean whatever. My nigga Nick Young had it right.
