KAILYN POV
I laid on the leather couch that Mashawn had previously resided and sighed deeply. Who would have known behind all that beauty and confidence, was so much sadness? I couldn't fathom what all he'd been through and felt horrible for being so ungrateful to my own family. They're just trying to help me and I just had to be selfish and ignore their kindness and Mashawn would give anything to see his family again. I thought this was the perfect time to call back home and check up on them.
Kathi (Kailyn's Mother): Kailyn, I wasn't expecting you call. (chuckles)
Kailyn: What I can't check on my family?
Kathi: No sweetie, it's just been awhile. We've missed you down here.
Kailyn: I've missed you guys too. But I'm surprised that you haven't asked me your favorite question.
Kathi: What good does it do anyone? I'm just gonna get the same response as all the other times.
Kailyn: You never know, it's worth a shot.
Kathi: (sighs) Alright Kay, so when are you coming back to St. Louis?
Kailyn: I don't know anymore, I really don't. So far everything's not going as I've hoped. My clientel hasn't been really high, I don't even know if I can keep up with rent, I'm just so stressed Mom.
Kathi: I understand sweetie, but I want you to know there's always a place in the Deaven's house for you babygirl. Just let us know, alright?
Kailyn: Yes ma'am.
Kathi: Well sweetie, I gotta get to work, okay. I'll call you when I get off.
As I hung up and set the phone down, I thought about what she said about always having a place back home. I was comforted. I never thought I'd even say this, but I missed Saint Louis but primarily my friends and family, but was it enough to go back? Was missing them enough of a reason to leave New York? Honestly though, being broke was enough to leave any place. Hell, I could barely pay the car note for a 98 Chevy. I keep thinking, all this stressing gone kill me one day as I drifted off into a hard fitful sleep.
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3 DAYS LATER: THURSDAY
MASHAWN POV
"Rose baby, if you came here to argue you can go now I'm not in the mood." I utter while I took a seat on the island in the kitchen.
Rose placed her hands on her hip and with a roll of the eyes yelled " No Mashawn! How the hell can you go from saying you wanna be with me to not hitting me up for fucking 3 days?"
I sighed and rubbed my face. I thought the white girls were supposed to be the easy ones "Look I'm sorry, it's just been a lot going on lately especially with therapy. It's just times when I gotta be alone and think about shit. It's nothing personal baby. Now come over here and gimme a kiss." I explained and motioned her over.
She reluctantly walked over to my seat and placed her arms around my neck and gave me a quick kiss as we both bit our lips. I rubbed her thighs as she whispered in my ear "I know how to take your mind off of all that." I smirked and carried her bridal style into the bedroom and closed the door.
I placed her on her back and brought my lips up to hers as our tounges wrestled each others. She slide her hands up my shirt to give each one of my packs special attention. As she rubbed me, I brought my lips to her neck . She moaned loudly cause I had finally got to her spot on the crook of her neck. By this time my shirt was off and our once soft slow kisses had sped up and become rough. Almost within minutes, Rose had gotten on top and taken off her tight lime green crop top. I rubbed her breast as she took my hard dick out of my shorts and placed it between her legs. She threw her head back as she slowly grinded on me as I held her hips in place. I tried countless times to raise up but she kept pushing me back down. She kept saying that she wanted to help clear my mind and she definitely was doing that.
"Nahh baby, this not gone happen." I groaned as I turned us over and got her laying on her stomach and I was behind her. I grabbed a fistful of her hair and brought her body up to me as I kissed and licked on her neck. "Say my name baby." I whispered in her pale pierced ear. She didn't listen to me, instead the girl bit down so hard on her lip that I coulda sworn she was bleeding.
"Say my name!" I yelled as I sped up my pumps. I know I needed to chill out but I was detemined to get this girl to say my name. But I will say this, white girl was a fighter cause most girls would have been screaming it after 5 minutes.
"One more chance baby, say my name!" I yelled and almost simultaneously, we both let out an eruption of fluids and in my mind all I could think was "FUCK!" cause I didn't have a condom on. Rose turned over to face me and kissed my lips, but I had no reaction. My mind was racing. I shouldn't of let my pride get the best of me, I should of just left it be but I didn't. I got snapped back to reality though, only cause Rose said some shit that almost got her punched in the face.
"Well I guess I'll just call you baby daddy now huh?" she snickered. I rolled out of bed and picked up her clothes and threw it at her. "Shawn what the hell is the matter with you?" she yelled.
"You tryna trap me! Get the hell outta my house! I ain't ever gotta see your ass again pregnant or not!" I yelled. Rose quickly put her clothes on but didn't leave, instead she got in my face and laughed.
"Hmm, typical nigga behavior." she spat. I tried my hardest to think about my family and how they wouldn't want me doing some crazy, but just the way she said it. With so much disgust and disrespect. I couldn't help myself and I ended up pushing her up against the wall.
"I told you to get the fuck outta my house you irrelevant piece of shit!" I yelled and was content to leave it at that.
"You weren't saying that when you were fucking me now were you?" she asked with a smirk.
"You right, I was wondering why your pussy was so loose." I said with a laugh. Rose laughed too and looked me in the eye with her big green eyes.
"I'm sorry Mashawn, I didn't mean that." she apologized as she sat on the bed.
I sighed. "I didn't either. Like I said earlier, it's just been a lot going on bruhh. I didn't mean to hurt you or anything." I replied sitting beside her putting my arm around her. She scooted closer to me and we sat in silence I guess trying to swallow all that went down. Rose was differen't from most girls I've messed with in the past, she deals with my crazy while everybody else runs from it.
"You know your mine now right?" I mumbled as i kissed her forehead. She only nodded as we sat there awkwardly again. Seconds felt like minutes and still no other word was uttered. Not a single one and I guess it was better that way, we were better when we didn't speak. Our actions made more progress anyway.
