I was greeted by twin slaps on my cheeks by my mom.
The high that I felt from being with Tae on 'our' hill came crashing down in an instant. You know when scab starts forming on a wound and you accidentally scrape it? My mom's words hurt more than that.
"Oh I knew you would screw up soon enough."
"It was just a matter of time."
"You are such a disgrace to this family."
"What would the Kims think? They welcomed you as their own. You were shameless enough to eat and sleep at their house all the time and you....you...you what? What the fuck are you anyway? What do they call your kind? Twink???
"Why are you trying to taint the perfect Taehyung? My god...what would Mr. Kim say? Did you for one minute consider what this would do to your dad's friendship with him?"
Joona was rejoicing as this was going on. I didn't cry. I wouldn't give them that satisfaction. Even when my mom said I was grounded and took my cell phone away. Even if the idea of not being able to see Taehyung tore me to pieces. Nope, they won't see me cry.
Oh, my dad was there too. He didn't say much except "I always knew Jungkook was gay". If I wasn't hurting from everything my mom was spewing out, I almost found that funny. Really, he knew it when I myself did not? Well, fuck my life.
I then heard my parents saying that there has to be a cure for my 'condition'.
What is this...the flu?
The next few days were a blur. As punishment, I had to do laundry, clean the house, cook etc. My mom and Joona made my life more hellish than usual. The only person on my side is sweet Jina. She was nice enough to say I could use her cell phone to text Tae. Except I didn't know what to say.
It's been a week at this point and I didn't know if Tae texted or called me or not. This was driving me crazy! I was dying to see him but I didn't want a text conversation because I was scared. What if I imagined the whole thing?
I woke up one day and heard my mom talking so sweetly (more like nauseatingly fake) to someone and I realized it was J-Min looking for me. To my surprise, my mom told J-Min that he could go up to my room.
As soon as J-Min entered, he said "Jina filled me in on what happened. Are you okay? Tae is really worried about you. Hey, I know about you guys. Tae talks about you all the time and I understand you guys perfectly. I understand because I'm in the same boat too."
I tried to act surprised but failed miserably as J-Min rolled his eyes in his signature diva style. He apparently came out to his family years ago and they had no issues with it. They told him it doesn't change anything. Lucky him.
J-Min then called Tae and handed the phone to me.
God I missed him. I wanted to see him so so much.
"Jungkook...I was so worried about you. I wish I can see you now but I don't want to upset your mom and make things worse for you. But I have something to tell you....my parents are sending me to the States to study. I don't know if they found out about us because they said this has been the plan all along."
"When are you leaving? Will I get to see you before you go?" I mumbled.
"I'm leaving soon; I don't think I can see you. Jungkook.....I LOVE YOU. Can you please say it back? Do you love me too? Will you wait for me?"
"I love you too, Tae. I will wait for you".
So this is what a heartbreak feels like.
