Me

grief

my grandpa died yesterday 1/10/2022

i am very sad

it was from covid

but he had alzheimer's and had been in poor health for a while now

i am mad at my family for how they told me

i was the only person in my immediate family related to him

he was on my mom's side so my dad was only related from marriage

my mom died when i was 7

via gun

via her hand

on purpose

on december 21

first day of winter

few days before what was my fav holiday, christmas

my grandmother, her mom, died a few months, like 2, before that

she was really sick

my dad's dad died before i was born

my dad's mom died shortly after 7th grade ended

i miss them

i do not feel as smiley right now btw

anyway back to my grandpa, i was told in the middle of shopping at walmart.

it was told like, oh yeah btw your grandpa is no longer with us, he got sick the other day and left last night

in the middle of the store i was told like it was nothing

i want to cry

i cant

i feel so weird

like a shell

i want to cry, but i physically cant

anyway here is a section called grief :')