Smiles [darker](b-day post part 2)

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*warning: dark real life topic is mentioned, thank you for reading my rant*

On top of all that I mentioned in the last section, I have to deal with my birth mom's family all of a sudden. They dropped out of my life for the last 15 or so years (since the divorce) and not they for some fucking reason are back in it?

half of a birth mom's family sUddEnlY decided to make my life a living hell all over again

the other half is trying to reach out like nothing ever fucking happened.

i am sick and tired of all these mother fuckers calling and saying "HelLO! WaNna bE fRIenDs nOw?!?! We lOVe yoU AnD miSS yOu!"

if they really loved me they would have fucking tried to contact me after my mom fucking put a bullet through her head.

if they really cared about me they wouldn't have all turned away from me when I fucking needed them


This section is about the darker side of fake smiling.

My biggest mistake has always been smiling when it was fake. It makes it harder now to tell if I am actually happy or if my fake smiling has has even fooled me.

I won't stop smiling though...


I don't know how. :-)

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