Never Letting Go [A Marauder's Story]

Time's Are Changing

If anything was going to bring Remus out of his bad mood and inevitable anger with Sirius it was the welcoming feast. As soon as he stepped through the grand doors, Sirius catching up behind him and looking rather sulky, he could already smell the food below them in the kitchens. He saw a girl be sorted into Hufflepuff and saw that they'd only missed a small part of the sorting.

"Moony" Sirius muttered over the sorting hat's loud voice.

"I'm not talking to you right now" Remus responded quickly as he sat next to Peter and Sirius sat opposite him.

Try as he might, Remus couldn't ignore Sirius' eyes on him. He wished he'd stop looking at him with those beautiful blue eyes otherwise he'd drive himself crazy. 

He watched as multiple other students were sorted and they ended up gaining 9 more Gryffindors that year, each announcement sending them all up in cheers. 

Finally they sat through Dumbeldore's familiar speech and no sooner was it finished than the hot food appeared on the golden plates. There were plates stuffed to the brim with roast potatoes and bowls of vegetables. There was the biggest turkey's all the way down the table that Remus had ever seen in his life. He couldn't help but dig in immediately and go straight for the mashed potatoes, Yorkshire puddings, turkey and carrots. He was reaching for the gravy when James cleared his throat. The two locked eyes and Remus just raised his eyes questionably.

"Grant's up in the dorm. Told him to stay there" James said quietly so no other students would overhear. 

Remus just nodded before pouring the rich gravy over his plate. The food was enough to distract him from Sirius but whenever he caught a glimpse of the black haired boy he saw that he wasn't eating. 

His instinct was the ask if he was okay but he stopped himself. He was mad at Sirius therefore he chose to ignore him and that was that. But he looked so pale and sad. Remus hated himself for it but he put down his fork and forced his eyes up to Sirius.

"You okay?" He asked with a slight sigh.

Sirius clearly hadn't been expecting Remus to speak a word to him and tensed slightly out of shock.

"I'm fine" Sirius said before his usual facade came back "Why do you ask? Thought you weren't talking to me?"

"Knew it was a stupid idea to ask. All you ever reply with is fucking sarcastic wit" Remus said he looked back down at his meal and stabbed his fork aggressively into a chunk of carrot.

Sirius just glared at Remus and pushed his plate away from him. With that Sirius walked away from them and out of the hall. The teachers and students were all very occupied with the delicious food that none of the seemed to notice him leaving, except the marauders who all exchanged glances.

"Moons" James said with sad eyes and Remus groaned.

"If you're gonna tell me to apologise for snapping then it's not going to happen" Remus said, his mouthful of carrots.

"I think you're both being immature" was James' response and Remus just raised his eyebrows.

"You're kidding right?" he asked reaching for his goblet of pumpkin juice.

James shook his head looking uncharacteristically serious.

"You're ignoring him to punish him and it's practically making Sirius lose his mind" James pointed out.

"You know why though. He deserves it" Remus said, the sting of betrayal hitting him again. 

"We both know he fucked up but...he didn't....intentionally..." James seemed stuck for words and just sighed to himself "the point is he's so sorry for it and has no idea how to make it up to you"