A Shy Kiss

Chapter 24

The girls all went to Momo's house for the sleepover, thinking it best to stay in a large group. They did their best in distracting you from the elephant in the room. You all did karaoke, watched a movie, ate some takeout, and even gave each other manicures. But nothing really seemed to distract you much.

Karaoke reminded you of how you and Tamaki broke out into song on your way to see your parents. The movie you watched was one you first saw with Tamaki. The food didn't compare to what your beloved Tama would prepare for you. He even painted your toenails for you once while you painted your nails. Everything you did reminded you of him. Was he this sweet loving man? His small smile he would show his friends? Or his big silly smile when he was alone with you? Was it all just a lie?

"Y/N, how are you holding up?" Asked Ochako.

You couldn't seem to hold it in anymore. The what ifs, the murders, the accusations....it was just too much to bear. You sat on the couch next to tsu and just hugged your knees, trying your best not to cry. Tsu could already tell you were at your limit and pulled you close as you finally let your burning tears fall. You held on to her as your body shook from your cries, the pain in your chest finally feeling some relief.

"I- I can't t-take this anym-more!" You cried. The girls went silent as you continued to cry, Tsu rubbing circles on your back as Mina went to give you a hug too. Momo and Ochako on the other hand didn't seem to realize how this ordeal had affected you in particular. They were wide eyed, surprised at your reaction. They stayed silent while the other girls jumped in to help you feel better. Tsu stayed quiet as you cried it out while Mina was offering helpful words of encouragment. Momo decided to jump into action to make tea for everyone. Ochako however, was still standing in the middle of the living room. She had trouble processing your grief. She had her own grief to deal with. Her roommate was gone. Her best friend- missing and possibly murdered. And you were crying because your boyfriend might be the cause of this?

She couldn't offer any sympathy to you, so she just went upstairs...away from everything. You on the other hand felt relief from being able to let go of your worries. You calmed down a bit and thanked Tsu and Mina before wiping your tears away on your sleeve. Momo came back soon after with tea and a pillow for you to hold onto. You thanked her before forming your words.

"I know you're all scared of him. I don't blame you.....but he's my everything. And to think- that he could be the killer....it's painful to think about. That all the love I gave him and the love he gave me was a lie. And the fact that I fell in love with a killer makes me sick to my stomach." The girls grimaced at your words.

It was true that they were no longer feeling safe anywhere near him. And she was realizing she wouldn't be safe with him either. Their priorities were in the safety of their friends. So much so that they had turned their backs on her. Letting you suffer alone with your thoughts.

Soon you heard stomping as someone ran down the larg staircase Momo had. You look up and see Ochako with her phone clenched in her hand. You wiped your eyes again, the puffiness not going away yet from your recent cries. She was angry to say the least.

Ochako had her teeth clenched, her eyes watering and her breathing labored as she glared at you. You stood up, giving your pillow to Mina to approach Ochako.

"Uraraka what wrong-"

"This is all YOUR FAULT!!" She screamed as she threw her phone at you. It smacked your shoulder before you caught it, a little horrified at her reaction.

"Ochako what is-"

"If it wasn't for your fucking boyfriend she would still be alive!!" She said, the tears finally falling as she slumped to her knees. She covered her face in her hands as she began to sob. Mina ran to help her, kneeling down at her side. Momo turned to face you, as if she already knew what this outburst was about. Your hands began to tremble as you hoped in your heart it wasn't what you were thinking. You turned the phone ober to read it. It was a news article. They had found Hagakure.

And she too was dead.

Your started to breathe hard as you kept scrolling. She was absolutely mutilated, bones intact while parts of arms, legs, and back were sliced and taken. Part of her ribs were also taken. You dropped the phone on the couch, the images in your head of what happened making you nauseous. By the time you looked up all the girls were surrounding Ochako. You were about to speak when Momo simply looked you, raised her hand to stop you, and said "not now Y/N." You stayed silent.

You kept your distance from them. As they began to read the article the more hurt they felt inside. And towards you. As Ochako's cries turned into quiet sobs, Mina held tight onto Ochako's phone. She muttered something that struck you to your core.

"If you didn't bring him into our grouo they'd all still be alive Y/N."

Now they're blaming you? Like you did this on purpose?

"Mina-" but it was too late. She cut off you off and said "just go."

Momo couldn't help but add "I think it'd be best if you leave Y/N."

The whole point of the girls night was to keep you away from Tamaki. So now they just don't care if he kills you too huh?

You didn't even spare them a glance as you grabbed your bag and left desoite Tsu's pleas. She was the only one that followed you to the door and tried to get you to stay.

"I'll be fine Tsu. If anything happens....you'll read about in the paper I guess." And with that you closed the door and drove away.

You opted to stop at a fast food place for a milkshake to soothe your broken heart. Your lover is probably a killer, and your only hope was your friends and now they've turned their back on you too. You couldn't even go home. Because Tamaki now knows where your parents live. You couldn't bring the danger to them too. You cried again in your car. You slammed your hand on the wheel as you cried alone in this empty parking lot of a fast food place at night.

There really only was one option. If you call the police, there isnt enough evidence to lock him up, and he'll hurt you if he finds out you called the cops on him. You have no friends left, and you can't let him get close to your family.

So you drove back to your apartment. Into your Tama's arms. He was surprised to see your red and puffy face, obviously from crying.

"Bunny! Aww bunny what happened you shouldn't be out alone so late. What happened to girls night?"

You didn't know how to answer so you just held him close and told him only about the article. He sighed sadly as he held you tight in his arms as he carried you to bed. You were exhausted.

Tired. Tired of crying, of wondering what if, of fighting with your friends, of reading about murders, and just tired of thinking. You layed on the bed the way Tama had gently set you down. He took off your shoes for you, undressed you, and helped you put on your pajamas. He helped you under the covers before pulling you close to him. He held you tight as he peppered your face in soft kisses.

"It'll be okay bunny, we just have to stay together and we'll both be okay."

"Okay." You mumbled quietly before falling asleep in his warm embrace.

Funny how you could only find comfort in the suspected killer. I suppose love is blind.

Or maybe it's just you.