Irreplaceable

Epilogue

I flatten out my dress, my eyes dancing around it. God there's so many creases in this, I should not listen to him when it comes to the way I dress he hardly has any fashion sense as it is. I jump out of my skin practically ,when I feel his arms around me.
"Hey beautiful." He mumbles to me before pressing his soft warm lips to the side of my neck. I tilt my head to allow him to get more access to my skin.
I half chuckle "I need to go." He whines against my skin, vibrating my whole body.
"No. Just stay a little longer." I turn my head to look at him.
"Quinn Myers, I need to go." I chuckle as he squeezes my waist. Quinn's lips kiss my neck before my cheek and then my lips. I pull away and look back into the mirror, I flatten my hair and then I fix up my lipstick and then head out the room into the kitchen.
Plates, pans and a god awful amount of food litters the sides. While a very busy poppy rushes around.
"Afternoon." I greet as I walk further into the room. She looks at me from over her shoulder.
"What's up. You look gorgeous, where are you going."
I freeze in my spot. I don't and can't tell her where I'm going. I pick my keys up from the island.
"Just the usual." I shrug.
"We'll do you want something to eat? I wouldn't mind a day out." She adds. I quickly shake my head.
"No. I'm doing a lot of errands." I make up an excuse. Poppy turns to look at me, her eyebrow raised and her nose scrunched. We have a staring competition before she slowly smiles at me.
"Well okay. Say hey to her for me." She smiles before turning back around to continue cooking.
"Sure." I reply before I slide on my heels and head out of the door.
I drive with my favourite music playing as I twist that ring on my finger. I've picked it up as a habit now, it's strange. This whole situation is strange. I pull into the car park and park up. I hate coming here yet I love it. Sighing, I get out of the car and get the pretty sunflowers and rainbow toy.
I pass by the other ones and glance. Some are well kept some not that much. My heart slowly breaking as I reach my little spot. Her grave.
It's quarter of a normal plot because she was a still born. The absolute pain of seeing my little bean not cry out that she's here. My poor little baby.
I place the flowers and toy onto the small dirt patch and run my finger along the cold stone.
Ayah Lillie Styles.
Born into gods arms,
The first time you opened your eyes you would see paradise,
Your spirit is still around,
I know someday we will be together but for now I will keep my peace.
God will protect you with all his might.
So sleep tight my baby ayah.

I still cannot believe I lost her. She's only thing that made me happy for a very long time after me and Harry broke up, he kept his promise and never came looking for me. Even though it was for the best it's all I could have hoped he wouldn't have done.

My phone vibrates in my pocket. I get it out to see Niall's name on the screen. My heart in my throat.

I suck in a quick sharp breath before placing my phone back into my pocket, I turn to the sunflowers and unwrap them , I then place them into the small little marble pot. I fiddle with them until I like how it looks before I place the little toy just below the headstone.
"Looking all pretty aren't you now?" I ask her, my fingers running along the top of the marble headstone. My eyes brimming with tears.
"I love you my girl." I whisper to her. My heart breaking even more. I clear my throat before looking around. "It's a gorgeous day in Daytona is it baby? maybe me and Quinn could go for a walk tonight before he goes home, he would have loved you." I laugh as I wipe under my eyes "I need to see the twins too. I'm having withdrawal symptoms." I chuckle. I look around me again before slowing getting up to my feet, I clear off the dirt. And rub the headstone again. "Well your uncle Niall wants to see me. He doesn't know that your not here, he will be so upset when he finds out." I say to her before I nod and take a very small step back. "I love you Ayah. I will see you tomorrow yeah?" I mumble to her before I turn around and head back for the car. My heart heavy with anxiety of seeing Niall after another year of not seeing him. The last I knew was that he was stationed not too far from Daytona and that Harry had gone to Ohio. Nothing else was said.
I pull up into the small car park and I see nialls car straight away. Nothing has changed. I have changed. I sigh and get out of my car. I think I've sighed At least one hundred times today already, I push open the door and the smell of coffee and soft music playing along with a small chatter and keyboards tapping. My eyes scan around the room until they land onto his bleach blonde hair. I feel my heart fall to my knees as I slowly walk over to him. His head turns to look at me, his eyes lighting up before he looks at my stomach and then around me to see... the baby.
He looks at me for a second before he stands up and bear hugs me, his arms gripping me tight. I hold him just as close, my eyes immediately filling with tears as all the memories flood into my brain like a tidal wave.
"Hey peach." He says into my neck.
Hey peach
Ayah, you would have loved your uncle Niall. He's the most loving and caring person I have ever met.
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