Mending Her

Chapter-12

I don't know why Rehan asked this question to me, but I can't answer this.

so I get up

"Excuse me. I am feeling sleepy. I am going back to my tent." I say and leave from there without waiting for anyone.

The tent is set up a few minute's walk from the site where we are doing barbecue.

When I reach near where the tent is set up I don't enter my tent, but I turn around and go for a walk.

Our tent is set up near the Beach, and there is a mountain on another side.

I can hear waves crashing on the beach, so I walk toward the water, leaving my shoes.

When the water touches my feet I stand there started to enjoy the wind.

It makes me feel peaceful how the air is touching my face and water is touching my feet.

I hear footsteps, so I turn back.

"Why you come here?" Lily asks, coming after me.

"I was not feeling well," I reply still closing my eyes.

"You said you will sleep. Why are you here?" she asks again.

But this time I don't reply.

"How long will you run Nyla? You need to stop somewhere. So what is the meaning of running?" She says and my mood becomes sour.

"I didn't run?" I say calmly, but my heart is anything but calm.

I don't always want people to judge what I should do and what not.

I know she cares for me.

But I too need a break.

"So why are you here alone instead of playing with us?" She asks, but I remain silent.

After some time I replied "I don't know what to answer," I say.

I didn't want to answer her, but she is the only person who was with me every moment of my life.

I know sometimes she is too annoying.

But she is the one who will never show me her back.

At least she never did till now.

So she deserves the answers.

"what?" she asks confused.

"I don't know what should be the answer," I say and she looks at me sympathetically. "Nyla...." She sighs.

"You can see these waves. They can come and leave. When they leave, they are sure they will come back. But I don't know if I can come back again like them to my normal life and make my heart to love someone." I say, looking at the sea.

"Nyla I know.." She try to say but I cut her.

"No, you don't know. Nobody knows. You say I ran away. Yes, I ran away. Because I don't want that love that gives me pain. The pain I can't handle. The pain I can't forget. The pain that kills me every day." I say and my voice broke due to too much emotion.

"You can. Time heals everything." She tries to comfort me.

"Really? Does time heal? How long it will take to heal me? Can you say? Can anyone say?" I ask but she remains silent.

"Seven years Lily. For seven years, I tried to heal my wound. It still is fresh as the first day. It still hurts as much as it hurt before. Can you say when will it heal?" I ask her sadly.

"Why you give importance to them." She asks and I laugh.

"I didn't. what do you think? I get hurt because I loved him? No." I say.