Mending Her

Chapter-06

Nyla's P.O.V.

After I woke up, Lily was sitting beside me, along with Tina.

She is looking so angry that I feel scared.

I know I have disappointed her.

I promised her I will do nothing inappropriate, and I will move on. But every time I see him everything returns to square one.

"So what is your explanation this time," Lily asks angrily and I gulp down my saliva

"I..I.." I stutter. I know after my ignorant stunt she is going to lash at me.

"Before you say any rubbish, let me tell you 'I didn't do it purposely. I can't control my feelings. You don't understand.'I am not listening to any of them." She says and I nod.

"Lily I am sorry." I look at my hands which are busy making patterns in my lap.

"You should be," she says and I look at her.

"But..." I try to say something.

But she cuts me.

"No, but. How many times I will have to make you realize those bastards don't even disturb your hatred. Let alone love. He is nothing but a stupid son of a bitch. It's 8 long years Nyla. I don't want to see you hurting yourself every time you see him." She lashes at me and I hear her silently.

I know she cares for me. And I am grateful for that.

She is the only person who was with me when I needed the support.

And she is still supporting me, though I act stupidly.

"I am sorry Lily. This won't happen again." I apologize.

"No. As long as I know you, this will happen again. Get a life or I will do something that will not be something you will like." She threatens.

"I am sorry," I say again.

"I didn't come here from so far just to listen to your sorry. Promise... Oh sorry, what results from the promise? After all, you will break them." She says in a mocking tone.

"No. I didn't break your promise. I didn't hurt myself." I correct her quickly.

"OH really. I found you in such a state today. It's not hurting yourself? If I would have not come what will happen to you. You already have a fever." She says. I was feeling sick. I know I may have a fever.

"I tried. I always tried to forget all this but..." A tear slip from my eyes.

"No but. It's you who can decide what will you think and what will you not think. You don't go on a blind date because you think everyone will cheat on you like him. You don't make friends because you think they will cheat on you. What do you think? I don't know all this? I know everything." She says and all of her words are true.

I am afraid of love; I didn't let anyone enter my world.

Because when they left it hurt a lot.

"No, it's not like that." I try to deny it.

"You know I am telling the truth. Nyla please I have told you enough. This is the last time I am warning you. If you don't stop all this, I will break all relations with you." she says and I look at her shocked.

But she looks determined.

"No. Give me some time Lily. I will be fine. I will move on," I can lose her for some stupid things.

She matters a lot to me.

"Don't you think eight years is enough?" She says, and I know it should be enough. But it's not. My wound is still open and I want them to heal too.