Mending Her

Chapter-30

"Nyla, you are not ready to believe anyone. You think I will cheat on you like John. Ok then marry me. Will then believe I love you?" He asks and I look at him shocked.

What is he saying?

Has he gone crazy?

"Why are you so desperate? Am I a game to you that you have to win?" I ask.

But as I look at his eyes, I saw pain.

Did I hurt him?

But this is what I can think of his confession.

"Do you think marriage is a child's play?" He asks offended.

Her word may have touched her nerve.

"No, but there is divorce after marriage," I reply.

Though I don't want to get a divorce after marriage. But I won't be in a relationship where I become a burden to someone, too.

It is against my self-esteem.

"No, there is not. If I marry you, there will not be any divorce. If you want to marry me, you will be stuck with me for a lifetime." He says confidently.

Why he is so confident about this love when he doesn't know me completely yet.

"Rehan, there is no end to this argument. I will never love you. Then why do you want to marry someone who will never love you in return?" I ask.

It will be an injustice to him.

"I want it because I think my love is enough for both of us. You don't have to love me just be with me, Nyla. That will be enough." He says in a pleading tone.

"Rehan, please don't do this. You can't change something so easily when I couldn't change it for eight years." I say and get up.

I can't make him understand and I know he will never agree with my words.

So leave it.

I was leaving but held my hand.

"Nyla, I was not doing anything. The reason is not I don't have faith in my love. It was because I wanted to give you time. But today I realize one thing." He says still holding my wrist.

I look at him, and there is a determination in his eyes.

"You don't want to be the reason is not your love. It's because you think you are incapable of love. But that is not." He says and I laugh.

"Do you think you know me more than myself? You don't even know me well Rehan." What is he?

Some type of obsessive teenager?

Who couldn't get his love, so taking it as a challenge?

"Yes, that is your thinking. But I will prove you wrong. You may have closed your heart in front of everyone. But I can read your eyes. You are an open book to me." He says, and I laugh again.

His words are making me feel bad for him.

He is living in a world that doesn't have any relation to reality.

This love, heart, everything is just bullshit.

And I don't want to fall into it anymore.

Today, after what John did it made me realize I was living in a fairy tale?

But after today I am not living in my past.

I know the past baggage will also come along with me as the name of memories.