Mending Her

Chapter-35

Next day,

I was sleeping when someone knock on my door.

I open the door in my sleepy gait, and Rehan was standing there.

I become shocked.

"Do you need something?" I ask, stuttering.

I hide behind the door and peek to talk with him.

"I came to check if you are ok or not," he says.

Can't he call?

Why does he need to come so early?

I am in my sleeping dress.

"I... I am fine. Anything else?" I want him to leave as soon as possible.

I was feeling so embarrassed.

"No, will you join me in the breakfast?" he asks rubbing his neck.

He is looking nervous.

"Yes, give me ten minutes. I will join you." I say, he turns to leave and I close the door quickly.

When I was brushing, I remember the conversation or you can say my confession in the boat.

I never know I had feelings for him.

I always thought I am too strong, and nothing can melt my heart.

But somehow he made a place in my heart without my knowledge.

When I see him unconscious, I feel like my life is falling apart.

I never felt something like this for John.

When John left me for Chloe, there was pain.

Pain for his betrayal.

Pain because my trust was broken.

But I never thought I will die without him. But yesterday when I see Rehan lying there and was not responding I feel like I will die with him.

I was feeling suffocated.

My heart was twisting inside.

But can someone feel like this?

What are these feelings?

Why do I care for him when he is not familiar with me?

Did his sweet gestures, caring nature, honesty make my heart fall for him?

Or is it just an infatuation?

I was so lost in my thought that I lost count of time.

When I come out getting ready I saw Rehan standing there.

"Why are you here? Did I take too much time?" I ask.

I look at the watch, and it's been around half an hour.

"I didn't leave. I thought we will go together." He again rubs his neck.

"I am sorry," I say apologetically and walk forward, lowering my head.

I take my seat on Rehan joined us.

The staff come and serve our breakfast.

We were eating silently, but the silence was feeling awkward.

I wanted to ask her about yesterday or talk about how is he feeling but then I don't want to start something that I don't have an answer to.

I agree I have confessed yesterday.

But when I think about what I said I feel embarrassed.

If I was in my right mind, I wouldn't have uttered those words ever.

But when the bullet has been shot, you can take it back.

"So I was thinking...." Rehan tries to say but when I look up, he becomes silent.

I was waiting for his words but that didn't come.

I was getting impatient so I try to break the ice.

"Ok fine, last day it was because of the moment. You don't have to take my word seriously." I say shyly and my voice becomes lower with the pass of time.

"Ok," Rehan says and I look at him shocked.

I was dying thinking about his reaction and here he is saying just Ok?

"Ok?" I ask and he keeps his spoon and looks at me.

"Are you expecting something else?" he asks and I look down.

"No... I mean yes... I mean." I hesitate, fidgeting with the spoon.

"Nyla," he calls me and I look at him.

"I will never force you with anything. I told you last time. You will come to me. But remember one thing whenever that day will come, one year, two years, ten years you will find me standing beside you." he says.

Though his words are illogical I feel good hearing them.

"So if now you are not feeling awkward can I ask something?" he asks and I become tense.

Will he ask answer from me?

"I have done with my work here. There is nothing left for me to do. If you want, we can leave tomorrow." He says and I nod.

That will be better.

I am feeling abnormal.

I know something is wrong with me.

I am feeling some pull toward him, which was not good.

I don't want to fall into all this facade of love again.

If we leave tomorrow, it will be good.

I will be busy myself at work, and this stupid thought will not disturb me.

"I am fine with it. When are we leaving?" I ask.

"We will leave after breakfast," he says and I note it in my mind.

I have only today to enjoy my time here.

"So I am asking will you spend the evening with me?" He asks nervously.

Spend the evening like a date?

What is he planning?

Why does every time his words contraindicate his action?

A few moments later he said he will not force me anything.

And he is now inviting me on a date.

Should I go?

"Ok, I will be there?" I agree and a smile forms on his face.

When I will leave this place, I will think about my feelings.

But now I want to enjoy this time.

I am letting myself open after eight years.

It will be a lie if I say I am not liking this.

John has always haunted me like a ghost.

Now when my heart is immune to his pains, I don't want to go back to that time.

I want to know how these things feel when someone loves you.

I don't know what my feelings are.

But I heard somewhere.

It's better to spend your life with someone who loves you than the person you love.

And I am sure Rehan loaves to me.

So why not give it a chance?

I have nothing to lose.

My heart has already been broken.

Nobody can break him more than that.

Maybe he can mend it otherwise.