my girl /: fez

fifteen: solo

I AM READY TO CARRY ON. after speaking with rue i know that i can't stay in my room any longer. hiding from the world won't heal my pain. it won't answer my questions. so here i am running laps around the school track. i've already made it half way through the day without breaking down. little did i know the simplest conversation with cassie would send goosebumps along my skin.

"what do you think?" cassie nudges me as we lightly jog next to eachother.

"hm?" i turn to her in confusion.

"tai are you okay? you're super zoned out" cassie asks me in a sweet tone.

"yeah it's just been hard recently" i admit as there is no point in trying to hide it at this point.

"wanna talk about it lovely?" she asks.

"i'm okay i'd rather not think about it" i shake my head as every memory of me and fez burns in my brain like a rod of hot iron.

"okay, well you know i'm here" she smiles and i smile back.

"anyway what was you saying?" i ask as i realise that i have completely moved on from what she was trying to tell me.

"oh! i was just asking if you think it's worth me waiting for mckay to finish his swimming trials or just go and get my nails done without him because-"

swimming?

shit.

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"so, wanna swim?" he smiles his perfect smile and slips his hoodie off.

my mind blurs as the memory becomes more vivid by the second.

"fez this is so beautiful! who owns this lake?" i ask whilst continuing to look out across the water.

"nah no one, it's a completely public lake but no one knows it's here. which is what makes it so special, there's a motel up the road from here. i always told ash if we ever get into shit, that's where we'll be" fez speaks more seriously coming towards the end.

"noted" i nod with a giggle but i seriously took note of it.

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"HOLY FUCK!" i gasp and stand still in my tracks. "i know where he is"

"what?" cassie asks. it's clear that my mood swings are giving her severe whiplash but i don't care.

i know where fez is.

"cas please cover for me. tell the teacher i'm super sick and have to go home. okay?" i ask the blonde girl.

"of course" she nods despite the fact that she has no clue why i'm leaving or where i'm going.

i sprint out the gates and run as fast as i possibly can to my car. how did i not figure this out sooner? he probably told me about the motel because he knew what was going to happen.

as soon as i reach home i climb out of my car and race to the front door. once i reach my bedroom i pile in spare clothes, money and anything else i may need for however long i'm there. that's if he is there after all.

"talia? what are you doing?" my moms voice slowly invades my room as i zip up my backpack.

"mom i know where fez is. i'm going to him. please spare me the lecture of how he "left me" and he "didn't come back for me" because i know deep down he wanted me to come with me. if he tells me to leave i'll leave, but i need to see him. i can't move on without knowing if he's okay or not. please just let me go" i take a deep breath and sigh before looking up at my mom.

i hate seeing her so upset. she doesn't understand how to help me but she doesn't want to seem intrusive.

"okay. be safe. keep in contact with me." she says quietly before i fling my arms around her.

"i will. i love you" i kiss her head as she rubs my hands gently.

"i love you too" she smiles.

then i make my way back to the car and shove my backpack into the passenger seat. i almost got back out of the car when it all hits me, how am i supposed to get there when i don't know the fucking way?

"please please still be on my phone" i pray to myself as i scroll for the app.

i downloaded a tracking device not too long ago in case of worse scenarios, therefore it tracks everywhere i've been with my phone since activating it.

"bingo" i chuckle to myself as i open up the app and scroll through the dates.

i'm quick to find it and immediately set the route into navigate mode and place it on the seat next to me.

i follow the route feeling myself speed up beneath the wheel as fez flashes across my mind in vivid shots. no matter how much i race down the narrow roads, time doesn't speed up with me.

"come on" i murmur as i clench the wheel with a harder grip.

after racing my way to the lake i carry on driving through the familiar wooded area until i spot a small building in the distance. that must be it. it has to be.

suddenly my body floods with nerves as i enter the motel car park , but as soon as i remember who's inside i can't hold myself back as i sprint out of my car and inside the building to the front desk.

"excuse me i'm meeting my boyfriend here, would you let me know what room he's in?" i feel the air catch in my throat as i say the term "boyfriend" when i haven't seen him for so long.

"his name?" she asks as she scans the folder in front of her.

"fezco"

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A/N so close until they see eachother omg
but is he there???
ahhhhh so excited for you guys to read!