Strictly Professional (gojo x reader)

Chapter 44

Summary:

The second half of your night with Satoru.

Author's Note:

Hello guys! I was actually able to post which I didn't expect to so that's nice! This chapter is one of the more chill ones as they have the more important conversations, but also some more fluff! I hope you enjoy!

Recommended songs: (I literally could only think of this one song, so feel free to comment songs that you think would work!)
Around by NIKI

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"I think we should start with the last night you were in this apartment, Princess." Satoru swallowed a bite of a cinnamon roll. "I think...we can both agree that was really the beginning of the disaster."

You were in the kitchen, scooping vanilla ice cream onto a gooey piece of brownie, grimacing at the memory of the awkward, embarrassing dinner. "Oooh, fun times," you hummed, walking back to the couch.

You plopped down on the soft cushions, admiring the melting ice cream mixing with pockets of melted chocolate. You took a bite, chowing through the decadent flavor when you felt the cushion beside you dip as Satoru scooches next to you.

"Before I say anything, I think you should say what was on your mind first—if you're comfortable," Satoru whispered, wrapping an arm around you.

You swallowed your bite, letting out a soft exhale as you leaned into Satoru's chest. "Well, that day," you began, fiddling with your fork, "I visited Nanami to know what was going on and your history with Mei Mei. I know it would've been better to hear it from you, but we were both busy and had barely been talking."

" Because I kept canceling," Satoru exhaled, running a hand over his eyes.

"Yeah," you slowly nodded, setting aside your plate. "So, since I wasn't in the dark anymore and I finally had time to talk to you, I wanted to make sure you were okay."

"I wanted," you paused, Satoru's hand coming around yours, resting it in his lap, "I wanted you to know I was there for you, that I was in your corner because I felt like I wasn't doing enough. And I was afraid that you didn't see me as someone to rely on, that you thought you had no one to listen to you again."

"So," you paused, moving your hands to fiddle with Satoru's, "when you said those words..."

"It confirmed your worst fears," Satoru finished for you, pulling you into his lap. "God, I don't think there are enough words to express how badly I wish I could take them back. But, I can start with, I'm sorry. I'm so terribly sorry—"

You shook your head into his chest, "It's fine now, Satoru. Don't worry about it."

"No, it's not. I wanted to solve this whole issue without getting you involved and ended up hurting you. That's not fine to me. " Satoru let out a deep exhale, gently cupping your cheek, silently asking you to look at him.

"I like the person I become when I'm around you, Stardust," he whispered, "I love how you make me pay attention to the small details you don't think matter, so I can plan surprises for you later. I love getting you to try things outside your comfort zone. I love being the person you love constantly arguing with. I love seeing you get flustered easily when I call you a nickname or kiss you in certain spots."

"It's because I like that version of myself, I didn't want you to worry about Mei Mei. I didn't want you to see a part of a past me that I'm not that proud of where everything was transactional, with no real feelings involved. It was all a nice distraction from feeling inadequate, from feeling something was missing, but none of it was real. I didn't want you to think what I had with her is what I want with you, Princess."