once i was happy
even if it was just a dream
i was.
and now i try multiple medications
to feel at most.
i'm trying to convince myself
to keep on
and not turn into dust.
i'm not saying i give up
or that it hurts too much
it's just,
that i try
and not succeed
that i fight
and not achieve
i'm feeling tired
it's getting hard to breathe
by time
the grief turns into misery.
holding in all the pain
because no one believes
that i can also feel
a lot
or less
too much
or nothing.
i can get stressed
but still try to impress.
i can feel depressed
and also like i am the best.
my mind feels like i am
constantly losing in chess
just begging to lay my head
down on your chest.
i need some time,
or maybe a lot,
to rest
but it will get better again.i promise.
YOU ARE READING
will it last for an eternity?
Şiirunspoken words, unspoken thoughts. everything what is running through my mind. all the regrets, all the secrets. that i would never dare to say out loud.