Loving Maddie (Loving Jaxton Spin-off #2) 18+ ✔️

Chapter 20 - slip up

Maddie's POV

I sit down on the toilet bawling tears as I force myself to pee and hopefully kill whatever sperm he has in his precum. I wipe his arousal along with mine off the inside of my vagina before taking antibacterial soap and washing again.

I'm freakishly trying to get rid of everything because of what he did. He can't do that, and he's forced me to my limit.

"Fuck Maddie baby I'm sorry." He pleads outside of the door as I wipe my tears and find some of my panties on the bathroom floor. I slip them on and find a pair of my shorts in the corner as I wipe my tears.

"Maddie I won't try anything. Open the door." He insists as I wipe my tears away. Hiding from him will only make it worse, but I can't even look at him right now.

I open the door and refuse to look at him as I wash my tears from my face staring at myself in the bathroom mirror. "Baby, Mads, I'm sorry." He tells me coming up behind me as he goes to touch my hip and I freakishly pull away.

"Why would you do that?" I ask calming myself down enough to talk to him. "I wasn't thinking." He tells me as I nod.

"You weren't. You weren't thinking! My mom got pregnant through condoms and birth control and the gynecologist told me if I had a slip up I'd end up just like she did and I told you that! That's why you have to buy condoms with extra lubricant and sperm killer shit in them! You just jeopardized my future by doing that! How could you?" I ask as he shakes his head no.

"Fuck Maddie. I wasn't thinking. I don't want to wear that shit with you, and you can't tell me you want to wear it either because we both know that when I'm bare you'll love it a whole lot more." He tells me as I glare.

"You know we can't. You know that!" I spit out as he sighs and grabs me into his arms. "I know and I'm sorry." He whispers rubbing my hair in his hand as I cry into his chest.

"I'm not ready to be a mom Lex. You can't do that." I tell him as he wipes my tears off. "I know. I know. I'm so fucking stupid and irresponsible. I know." He tells me as I sigh holding his waist.

"Sorry won't fix it if I pop up pregnant because of that," I tell him. "It was just the tip, two seconds tops Mads." He tells me as I shake my head no.

"That's all it fucking takes Lexington! How do you think Izzy is pregnant!" I shout at him as he sighs and rubs his hair between his hands.

"When do you refill your prescription for your birth control?" He asks as I wipe my tears and hold his arms.

"Today actually," I whisper as he kisses my head. "Listen, I'll go get extra condoms and a plan B, and your birth control from the pharmacy. What type of soap kills sperm?" He asks me as he rubs my face in his hands.

"Probably the antimicrobial body wash one. Get antibiotics for a yeast infection too and maybe that'll help wash it out." I tell him as he sighs.

"Maddie I think you're freaking out," Hs tells me as I nod. "Oh I know I am because I'm not getting pregnant, not even the thought of it," I tell him pulling my own hair out.

"I know how much this means to you okay?" He asks as I nod. "I guess I was thinking with the wrong head." He whispers trying to make me smile as he grins down and kisses my lips.

"I love you." He whispers kissing my cheek as I nod.

"I love you too. And pick up ice cream, cookie dough preferably." I add as he slips on his sweats on the bathroom floor and walks out grabbing a hoodie as I sigh and lean against the sink with my head in my hands. I never thought I'd be here, and I pray to God that his tip doesn't end up getting me pregnant right now.