Unexpected; 5sos Fanfiction

Chapter Nineteen

I gripped my pillow tighter. It was really warm. Then it moved. I opened my eyes and saw a sleeping Madi laying next to me. I smiled. She was so gorgeous. He beautiful blonde hair was laying over her face and I brought her closer to me kissing her forehead.

She shifted and opened her eyes, before I could say anything she jumped up and quickly got out of my bed.

"I'm sorry! Oh my god! I have to go...I'm so sorry" I watched as she walked out of the room and I got really confused.

What did I do wrong this time? I didn't think I did anything wrong...I'm so stupid!

Haydens POV

I heard the door of our suite slam and looked from the couch to see a running Madi. She ran right past me and into her room slamming the door. Shit. Shit. Shit! I knew she passed out with Luke last night, but he wouldn't do anything, would he? I quickly got up and walked to her door opening it slightly to see her sitting on the floor with her head in her tears and heard her quiet sobs.

I walked over sitting next to her and wrapping my arms around her pulling her to me. "Oh hunnie what happened" I asked while running my fingers through her hair.

She was sobbing and took a deep breath. "It was all my fault. Luke and I were cuddling and he kissed my forehead waking me up and I freaked out" More sobbing and deep breaths. "I ran out and came over here and now all my chances are gone! He thinks I'm fucking insane!" I kept my fingers going through her hair and evaluated the situation.

I knew he didn't try anything, he just doesn't know. He doesn't know that she is damaged..."Madi hunnie...he doesn't think your insane, but I bet he is a little confused. Maybe you should tell him." I felt her whole body shake and she sat up and looked at me with disgust.

"Why would I do that?!? So he can pity me because I was raped? I don't want pity! I want to be normal! I want to be able to have a boyfriend without thinking that he will touch me in a way I don't want or force me to do thing! But I can't have that can I! All because I was raped! Why me! Why fucking me!!" She stood up and walked into her bathroom and I heard the door lock.

I sat on her floor shocked and stood up slowly. She had never yelled at me like that. I've never seen her so...hurt. I never looked at it like that. And I knew Luke wouldn't either. I walked out of her room and to the door. She might not be happy, but Luke needed to know.

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"And that's why it's hard for her Luke...she doesn't know how to trust guys because the one guy she did trust took everything from her" I couldn't read the expression on his face, not until a tear fell.

"I thought I did something wrong I never once though..." I knew what he was saying. He never thought she was raped. No one did. I was the only person she told.

"She didn't want to tell you because she didn't want your pity, she didn't want to be looked at as the girl that was raped." I said taking a sip out of the tea Luke had made while I was talking. We were sitting on their balcony and looking out at the ocean.

He sat there looking at the waves. He probably didn't know how to react. "She needs to know that she can trust you" He nodded at my words and took a drink of his tea.

"She can trust me. I would NEVER do that to her...she is to precious" I smiled at his words. I knew he wouldn't do that, and so does she, but it still scares the living shit out of her.

"She doesn't think you would, but she gets so scared." He nodded and stood up walking to the railing.

"I need to show her she can trust me. But how?" I was baffled by this question because I didn't know how to respond either.

"You need to take it slow with her. Show her that you don't want to rush ANYTHING" He nodded again contemplating my answer.

I stood up and set my cup down on the small side table. "I need to go get ready. The bus will be here at two and it is 11:00 so you might want to get your things ready too." I said walking into the suite from the balcony.

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Madi's POV

I looked in the mirror at the mess of myself. My makeup from last night was already ALL over the place plus the crying...I looked like a damn raccoon. I grabbed my makeup wipes and cleared my face of the disaster.

Why did this have to happen to me. I was never a bad kid...make a simple mistake and everything is ruined. Luke is so sweet. I know he won't do anything, but I'm still so scared. I could finallyhave a chance with someone and I'm ruining it.

*knock knock knock*

"Madi. The bus is getting here at two. Get your things together" I heard Haydens voice and just wanted to run out and hug her.

I heard her footsteps walk away from the door and knew she was upset. I didn't mean to yell at her I just had a panic attack. She has always been there for me and I screamed at her. Another tear fell down my face and I wiped it away. She was right I had to get my things together for the bus. And a I had to apologize to Luke...and maybe explain why I'm the way I am.

Hey dolls! I'm going through alot right now and being able to escape into the world of wattpad is really helping. I love you all!! Not as much as Micheal Clifford, but still...handbags.

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