B: YOU SAW WHO?" she says dropping everything she had in her hand on the counter. she turns around with anger in her eyes.
W: I saw Matthew, but like I said it's not big deal." I replied calmly, grabbing a baby carrot of the counter.
B: how is this not a big deal? HELLO it was MATTHEW?!?" she looks like she's about to blow a gasket.
W: billie calm down it isn't that big of a deal. okay? I took care of it, he's gonna leave me alone and I'm going to get a restraining order tomorrow so it doesn't happen again okay?" I said hugging her.
B: what does 'I took care of it mean' Winter?"
W: it just means that he put hands on me and I put hands back, I learned to fight because of him, so I used it on him." I said walking to sit on the kitchen counter.
B: winter.." billie trailed off walking up to me standing in between my legs looking up at me meeting my eyes.
W:hmm" I hummed.
B: I don't want you getting hurt. I know you're strong, I know you know how to take care of yourself when im not around. I know you're, you and you are amazing in everything but what if he comes back and he isnt alone, what if its a group of them this time and you are alone and you cant get away and you don't have anything to protect yourself, they can like take you and I don't want him to take you because what if he does something terrible and I never see you again and-" she was ranting and needed to breath
W:billie it's okay, I promise." I pulled her into a hug and just held her.
W: how about this, if something happens I'll text you the word chemical. okay"
I dont really know how to comfort her, no one has cared if I lived or died before. I mean DJ yeah but he's to busy to care. and billie never cared before and my parents are like non existent anymore they are never home.
B: why chemical, but I also don't want to make you feel like I'm controlling or anything."she says with a slight pout in her voice.
W: Bil you don't make me feel like that, you're the first person that's ever cared what happens to me. like yeah there's DJ but you know it's different. you make me feel safe so if me having to text you a word when I need you is how you'll feel then I'll do it." I say gently stroking her hair as she hugged me tighter
B: only if you want to. okay?" she says with a voice of worry still not being completely sure of any of it.
billie is the most caring admirable person. she cares more for people then she does herself.
she is the most perfect person ever. I love her.
holy shit I love billie. I. love. billie.
B: Win baby?" she said looking into my eyes with a look of lust
W: yes?"
B: I love you, and I hope that's okay that i do. I know we haven't been dating that long and it might be to soon and you don't have to say it back," she takes a breath, "but I love you"
she finally stops for a second and waits for me to speak, I reach for her hand that is placed on the counter, and look up at her eyes.
W: I love you to billie. you make me feel safe and loved and appreciated and like I'm finally wanted by someone for me and not just my body. you're my safe space and I love you." I finish and kiss her lips softly.
I get down off the counter and lead her towards the couch where we sit and she cuddles into my chest and slowly falls asleep. as well as myself until I'm woken up by my parents screaming at billie
her parents names are Rachel James and Adrian James
R: what are you doing here laying on my daughter like that!?" my mother screams
A: there is no need to be on our daughter and in our house!"
I sit up and run towards billie who is backed into a corner by my parents.
W: what the hell is going on!?!?"
I look at them confused and scared for yelling at them back.
R: what's going on is this dyke was laying on your chest in the living room when we came home!"
I just look at her with zero expression and a confused look. as I process what she has just said.
W: mom are you homophobic?"
R: yes. I don't like gays or anything to do with their stupid "community"." she finished with eye roll.
W: well then you should know. billie and I are dating. and I'm gay and I'm apart of that community and if there's a problem then tell me now and I'll leave." I say with no fear. (yall ik this is cringe but this is the first time I've written since 2021 or 2022 so bare with me)
R: then leave winter. I don't want you here neither does your father." she motions to Adrian who's been silent this whole time.
W: well mother. consider yourself with one less child. I knew you believed in God but I didn't think you believed in being a homophobic bitch!"
I turned to billie.
W: billie go home. I'll call you tomorrow morning" I say with a toothless smile and a kiss in her cheek.
R: you will not be calling her-" I cut her off
W: what with the phone I bought and pay for? or seeing her with the bike I paid for? or hugging her with the clothes I paid for? take or touch my shit mother and I'll sue you for robbery. because that's my SHIT!"
Billie leaves and I go upstairs to my room and pack my things and to grab my dog, and go over to billie where Maggie answered the door.
M: hey winter I was just about to call your parents, billie came home crying is everything okay?" she asks with concern and care in her voice.
W: hello Mrs.O'Connell no everything is not okay, I just found out my mother is a raging homophob and came out to her and got kicked out all in 5 minutes, but I came over to talk to billie if that's okay?" I ask with sadness on my face leaving as soon as I see billie pearing out from behind the door.
M: are you sure you wanna see her billie?" she asks with the caring and kindness I wish my parents had.
B: yea mom it's okay" she smiles and comes to the door as Maggie walks away.
W: listen I'm so sorry for what happened over there. but I was wondering if I can leave a few of my things and princessa here until I find a place? I turn 18 next week so at least until then?"
then I see Maggie rush to the door. with concern and sadness
M: of course you can and you're welcome to stay with us to. billie told us you're dating and I wouldn't feel okay letting you sleep on the streets or random peoples couches."
she smiles and brings me into a hug.
W:thank you Mrs.O'Connell"
she chimes in
M: Maggie is fine dear."
she grabs princessa's leash from my hand and leads her towards the back yard. and billie bends down to grab some of my things. as j grab the rest and we head inside. to her room where she already had a drawer cleaned out for me.
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heyyyyyyyyy sooooooo it's been a while, yes and I'm sorry but he's a. 1341 word page for you.
anyways I love yall DRINK YOUR WATER love you 💛🤍🖤💚
