enjoy the picture of my dog her name is Feather Anne. anyways.
Winters pov.
B:Win wake up it's just a nightmare." Billie said in a calm soothing voice. With her hand resting comfortably on the small of my back. As she lightly moves it up and down my back, in a comforting motion.
W: It's not just a nightmare, Bil" I said still laying down. With tears still running down my face as i remember the pain and fear i was experiencing that night.
B: What do you mean Winter, you were just having a nightmare. That's what it was, right? Just a nightmare?" She asks so sincerely, and innocently.
I just shake my head no. And sit up to hug her. She holds me tightly, knowing I cant stand weak ass hugs.
We just sit there for probably 20 minutes before. I spoke up.
W: It wasn't just a nightmare bil.." I paused and looked up into her deep blue eyes. And then continued "it was real. What happened in my nightmare..has happened. It happened when we were about 16, when you went to that house party, and finneas asked me to watch pepper, because he wanted to go keep an eye on you. because you can be reckless, no offense." she just nodded her head knowing I was right.
W: well after you guys left. One of DJ's teammates came over here because he wasnt at our house. I let him in because he seemed nice. And layed back. And DJ wasnt supposed to be gone more then 30 minutes. But DJ was gone 4 hours before you and finneas came home. The first 3 hours were cool. We watched tv and played board games. Ate some food. But the last hour-" I took a deep breath stopping more tears from falling.
W: the last hour was so bad Billie." I just looked into her eyes. And remembered how calm she makes me. But I could see the anger in her eyes growing. Her heart rate picked up a little, anticipating what I was going to say.
I sat up from her hold. And laced our fingers together. I looked down because I was ashamed of how dumb I was to even let him in to begin with.
B: Di-did he touch you winter?" Feeling unable to speak I just shook my head yes.
Her grip on my hands got a little tighter. I could tell shes getting angry.
B: did he. Did he rape you Winter."
I started crying harder at the words she said. That was a response enough for her to know the answer.
B: who was it." She simply stated. Not questioned. But stated. I know why she wants to know. But I dont want to tell who it's someone she was hanging out with 7 days ago. And hangs out with on a daily in and out of school.
B: Winter James. Who. Is. It."
W: M-Matthew.."
B: Matthew, Matthew. Like on the basketball team Matthew. Hangs out at my house Matthew? Is that why he was gone for 6 months?"
W: Ye-yeah.. he told e-everyone he moved with his d-dad because his p-parents aren't together. B-but he was in j-juvie for r-rape.."
B: does anyone know about this?" She asked in a more calm voice.
I just shook my head yes.
B: Who DJ?"
I shook my head no
B: Your mom?" Knowing how close we are.
I shook my head yes.
B: anyone else?"
I shook my head again.
B: oliver?"
I shook my head no.
B: Finneas?" She asked knowing the last person she think of.
B: how does finneas know but not me or DJ?" She asked hurt.
W: Because Finneas walked in with you when it was happening. football tackled Matthew and the beat him up." I say still looking down at her hands
B: Why didn't he tell me? Why didnt you tell me? I'm gonna kill him" she said calmly. Which is scary because when she's mad you can tell. But this time it was a different type of mad.
W: Because I asked him not to. Because I know he was your friend. Billie do you know how scared I was, how embarrassed I was. I shouldn't have even opened the door. But me being me. I did." I just looked down.
B: Winter, you have nothing to be embarrassed by, are you kidding?" I just looked down at my hands which were still in hers. I love the way they fit together.
She lifted my head, by my chin with her finger. We just stared at each other for a minute before she spoke.
B: Winter. He should be embarrassed. He should still be in jail. I am sorry he did what he did. But what he did to you, has nothing to do with you. Yes he did something he will never be able ti take back. But you are absolutely perfect winter, in every way possible. Okay?" She asked still holding eye contact with me.
The only thing I could think of to do is kiss her. So I did.
I leaned in and kissed her soft lips. Our lips moved in rhythm with each other. I had my hand placed on the side of her cheek. While she had her hands on my waist holding me with the perfect pressure.
I slowly made my way onto her lap. Not breaking the kiss. We made out for at least 2 minutes before breaking the kiss and taking a breath.
B: Wow."
W: Yeah, wow"
We just smiled at each other. I just leaned in and wrapped my arms around her neck and cuddled into her neck. She laid her head on my shoulder with her arms around waist. We just sat there cuddled into each other. Feeling her in my presence, is amazing. She spoke up.
B: Winter?"
W: Yea bil?"
B: will you be my girlfriend? Like for real, hold my hands in the hallway, I'll walk you to to your classes, and we can go to games together an-"
I just kissed her again I was so happy she asked all I could do was kiss her.
I felt her smile into the kiss. She leaned back and looked into my eyes.
B: Is that a yes?" She asked happily already knowing the answer probably.
W: yes billie. It's a yes" I reply with and smiled.
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Hey it's been a while. Missed you guys. You might get more chapters because it's a mere coping mechanism. But i love you all. And thank you for reading and feel to comment I like hearing from you. Word of advice, if you're in a relationship. Dont keep shit bottled in. It makes shit worse. Just make sure you talk to your s/o and gn everyone, drink some water if you havent. Eat some food if you havent even if you eat something small. It still matters. 💚💛🤍🖤
