Story Of My Life (In A Relationship With EXO Lay ✅)

3 | Is There Something Called Fate?

"You seem down today."

I tied my shoelaces and avoided Hyun Jae's gaze. She was my co trainee and if everything went well, then maybe we would debut together in the future too. Don't get me wrong, she was a good person but I wasn't an open book. So, that was that.

"Homesick, I guess," I muttered, and she made a sympathetic face. I hated pity, that's why I never told her about my family or anything, but desperate times required desperate measures, right?

"It's okay. One day our hard work will pay off." she patted my shoulder as I grabbed my bag from the table. "Uh... I'm meeting a friend of mine this evening. Would you like to join us?"

"Sure." I agreed absentmindedly. Anything was great as long as I could keep the image of Yixing kissing another girl out of my mind. Hyun jae held my elbow and smiled. I smiled back. We both were 19 and got along well.

She looked extra giddy today, and I wondered why. She had no friends. At least not many. And, she had never, I mean, never invited me to join her for anything. We had boundaries. We were acquaintances, yes, but never really shared personal life with each other. That was going to change today, I guess.

I took shower at my apartment, and met her around the corner. For a moment, I just stared. Hyun jae looked gorgeous. Like a princess. My mouth opened to compliment her, but couldn't find words. She never really dressed up, so it was kind of an awkward situation. She tucked her hair back, nervous.

"I'm looking stupid, am I not?" She chewing her lip, and I shook my head.

"You look pretty. I'm just awestruck." I went to her and touched her hair. "He or she is not just your friend. Right? Do you have a crush on this person?"

"Maybe." She grinned. "I know, we're not supposed to date during traine days, and we're not. He's just a friend, I swear. He's debuting in the upcoming SM group and he's so nice. And, so charming. I met him during my senior high school, he was supposed to debut in ShiNee, but he injured his leg and couldn't. I adore him. He's like this nice guy who is smart, kind, friendly and I... I'm blabbering, I guess."

I couldn't help it. I burst out laughing. "Oh my goodness, you've it bad. Does he return your feelings?"

Her face fell, and I bit my tongue. "He's nice to me. He's nice to everybody, so I don't really think I'm special."

"Is that why you dressed up this way today? To impress him?"

"Kind of?" She scratched her neck, a nervous gesture. I sighed.

"Hyun Jae-"

"Alanna." The girl wasn't comfortable with her real name so she had chosen this name to debut, and even introduced herself to others as Alanna. I liked her real name though. Hyun jae gave her a feel.

"If it takes your looks for someone to notice you, love you, then they don't deserve you. Your beauty is going to fade in time, love. He should be interested in you. Your presence. You. Only you."

"But, I'm boring!" she stomped her foot.

"Everyone is boring, girl. No one's interesting, trust me. We just think that other person is the God because we don't know them. They're boring too. Everyone is. That's sexy."

"Being boring is sexy?" She made a face.

"Being Hyun Jae is sexy. Being known as Alanna in the upcoming years is sexy. Being a normal, beautiful woman inside out, is sexy. Being you is sexy."

"That's why I brought you here. To boost my confidence." She held my hands. "But, Fei, remember the girl code. You're not supposed to fall for him. Okay?"

I chuckled. "Okay." I already was infatuated with someone else. No need to worry about this mystery guy. We made our way to the local restaurant, and I had to reassure Hyun Jae thousand times over her appearance. It was funny how insecure she was of her looks. In my eyes, she was the Goddess of beauty, but in her eyes, she was nothing. What a pity.

Hyun jae opened the door and I followed her inside. Her eyes settled on the corner seat, and I looked at her crush. I froze. No. No. No. This couldn't be happening. Fuck. No. What kind of sick game this was God? Yixing sat there, looking out of the window. I looked at my friend and then at Yixing, and almost threw up. What did I do to deserve it, God? Fucking hell.

Fuck.

Fuck.

"There he is."

Fuck.

Shit.

"Be nice to Junmyeon, please." Hyun jae whispered in between my mental breakdown.

Fuck.

What? Wait. A short guy, shorter than me atleast, was standing before me, smiling at Hyun Jae. She bowed to him, and turned to me. "Fei, this is Junmyeon. My friend. Oppa, this is my co traine and friend."

Junmyeon pulled his cap down and bowed. I bowed back. Okay. So, the guy wasn't Yixing. Hyun jae liked someone else. Someone who wasn't Yixing. I was free of the girl code. My eyes teared up the moment Yixing stared up at me. I stood by his table. Junmyeon sat beside Yixing. Hyun jae sat on the opposite side, and I could see her hand gesture to make me sit beside her.

"Li Fei Hong." A dimple smile covered his face as Yixing stood. "What are you-"

I jumped into his arms and burst into tears. I couldn't find myself to explain it. The relief that he wasn't my friend's crush. The comfort of his arms. The way he smiled at me. Everything was overwhelming. I cried. I cried because training was exhausting. I cried because I felt alone. I cried because I couldn't find him in South Korea.

I cried because when I did find him he was in someone else's arms.