Story Of My Life (In A Relationship With EXO Lay ✅)

8 | Do You Want To Give Up On Me?

"We want you in the final line-up."

"Why?" I sat in the office and stared at the manager of trainees. He sighed and placed his hands on the table, a disappointed look on his face. "Fei, your aura is what makes you unique and original. I really want you to clear the upcoming debute evaluation. You've our full support."

"The new SM boy group debuted just a few months ago. I thought we had some time before the whole process?" I said. Yes, Yixing debuted. While I was happy for him, I was not happy with myself.

We had not talked to each other for these past six-seven months. Of course, he and I crossed paths and greeted each other, but that was it. Yixing got busy with the final debute evaluation and gave it all to show his worth to the company. He didn't have time for me. I didn't get to mope around too. Training was taking us to the next level as after the boy's group, a girl group was going to debute. Everyone wanted to secure a position in it.

"Yes, I thought that too, but things change." The manager sighed. "You're always getting in trouble, going to the disciplinary section again and again. It's not going to look well-"

"Then I won't debute. Don't really care," I mumbled.

"Because you're not seeing yourself with our eyes. People are going to get crazy after you, Fei. You're the perfect face to market the group, your chances to debute are high, don't take it for granted."

I was not. I was not taking it for granted. I just knew that I won't get to debute. It was so funny at this point. I was an adult, but still needed an approval from my parents. An approval they won't give me. The manager talked to me more about debute line-up. I didn't even know what they saw in me honestly. They should give this chance to someone like Hyun Jae. The girl was working her ass off as a trainee.

"Noona." Jongin met me in the corridor as I came out of the office.

"Hey," I greeted him and started walking towards the practice hall. He followed. "Do you have something to say?" I asked and saw two boys walking together. Chanyeol and Kyungsoo. I had hardly seen these two Exo members apart. Since training to debute, they were like lock and key. Always together.

"You know how busy these past weeks were. More like these two months." Jongin scratched the back of his head. "I've a friend... Kind of a friend. She has a restaurant. We were thinking to have a get together there to celebrate our debute."

"Good. Do that." I nodded, already in position to leave him when he held my hand. "What now?"

"You should come too." Jongin dropped my hand when saw a staff member walking past us. Dating was banned in our trainee days to keep our focus on the training. Nowadays Yixing didn't even have a phone to reduce distractions. Of course, we could have meals outside, but we still had to make sure the interactions were limited to get our managers off the back.

I sighed. "I don't know. I don't really know anyone." It was the truth. Never tried. Did I regret it? A bit. Because Yixing used to look so down whenever I said no to dinner or lunch with his friends.

"Everyone knows you though. Yixing hyung talks about you all the time." He smiled. I didn't feel relieved.

"I'll see into it. Good bye." I patted his shoulder and went to the practice room. Hyun Jae was there, holding her stomach. She had trouble with her periods because of the constant pressure and stress. The upcoming debute evaluation was next year. "You need to see doctor, babe."

Her eyes were filled with tears and she at once blinked when saw me. She didn't like crying in front of others. "I know. I saw one last night. It's because of stress. I'm on medication now."