Forever yours

Ch. 14 Try Hard or Cry Hard

I turned my phone of so that I couldn't receive anything from Shawn or Jess that could make me change my mind. The cab pulled up to the airport, I didn't realize how far it was. "That'll be 78.50 please" I handed him my credit card and let him do the transaction "thank you for choosing our services" he handed me my card back and helped me get my suitcase out of the trunk. "Thanks"

I walked into the airport and it was practically dead... But then again it was only 530 AM... I was exhausted and I just needed to get as far away from here as I could. Every step I took I felt my heart rip more and more.

I crossed to the front counter "hello mam how may I help you?" I took out my ID "yeah I should have a ticket to Washington under the last name Mend... I mean Jenkins" I guess I started getting use to being called Mendes.. This is going to be harder than I thought. "Ah yes right here" I handed her my credit card and signed off on a paper and she gave me my ticket. "It's be down Gate 5" she pointed to the right "did you want to Carry on your luggage?" Its cheeper that way "um yeah, thanks" she nodded and I proceeded to gate 5.

My flight was gonna leave any minute. I walked up to the lady that was standing at the front counter "ticket please" I gave her my ticket and she allowed me through. "Thank you" I walked on the plane and pur my carry on in the compartment above my seat. I sat down and buckled up "lady's and gentleman we will be taking off shortly, please remain seated until we are air born" good... I just want to go home.

The plane started to roll out and take off, and I let sleep take me to the land where Shawn and I were still together... In my dreams...

Shawn's p.ov

The sun started to shine through the window, man last night couldn't have been any better. I stretched out and had a huge grin plastered all over my face. I got out of bed and threw on some shorts and a shirt. "Gotta go wake up my girl" I walked out in the hall way and the boys were all asleep in random places. I got on the elevator and road up to shelbs room.

The doors opened and it was dark, must still be asleep. I know Matt took Jess out to a park or something and then they were gonna crash on the beach or something. I walked into shelbis bedroom area and slowly cracked the door open. Her bed was empty. What the hell?

I walked over to her bed and her sweats were folded up and there was a letter sitting on top of them addressed to me. It read...

Dear Shawn,
I should start by saying sorry... Sorry that I couldn't keep a promise... Sorry that I couldn't try... Sorry that I couldn't be your star... I want you to know that you gave me something that no one else could, you gave me the best couple of days I've ever lived... You've given me friendship... And you've given me a memory... But that's all we can ever be is a memory, one that ill cherish forever... You see Shawn you have worked so hard for your career and I won't be the one to watch you crumble and fall... I can't let the people think your with a 'sluty girl'... I know I shouldn't care about what they think, but I do... And I care about you to much to let what you have worked so hard for, crash and burn... I will miss you Shawn.. Goodbye...
Sincerley
Your shining Star

I know I should be angry at her but I'm not. I'm angry at my fans. I crumbled up the letter and threw it at the wall "shit!" She wasn't going to leave me like that.. But I can't believe she broke our promise! No I'm done losing people I love...

I ran back to the elevator and went up to my floor. I rushed to my room and threw some clothes into a small bag and grabbed my wallet and phone. I walked back out and Nash was there "where are you going" I dont have time for this! "I'm going to get my girl" I didn't even let him speak. I jumped on the elevator and went down.