Out Of Town | A Blind Channel FF

26. Gravity

Joonas Porko:

When I arrived back at the party I had to get me some really strong drinks. I had to forget what I just heard for the rest of the night. It was the worst for me to face Suvi.

The night was shit. I was alone in my cabin, everything was turning because of too much alcohol and still I had my thoughts around Vilho's break up. I just slept for around 1 maybe 2 hours before I got up early and made myself ready. We got breakfast in our cabins. I didn't ate anything and just packed all things. I texted with Suvi and tried to be as normal as possible. I told her about her dad wanna visiting us this evening and she was so happy about it.

When we were back in Helsinki Suvi and I drove directly to my appartment. 'You're so quiet. Is everything alright, Joonas?', Suvi asked me, her hand rested on my arm. I shook my head no. 'I'm really tired and would love to have a quick shower and a nap before your dad comes over.', I said and yawned.
She stroke over my arm.

When we arrived home I threw my bag in the bedroom and took some fresh clothes out of the closet.
'Would you like to join me?', I asked her. She smiled and grabbed some things. The hot water made me ease up a bit and I need to say, that I enjoyed her company very much.

Right after the shower I cuddled up with Suvi in my bed and I was lucky falling asleep. I really missed her last night and felt much better holding her in my arms.

It has only been an hour we slept, but it helped a lot. I placed little kisses on Suvi's back to wake her up. 'Rakas, get up, your dad will arrive in an hour.', I whispered in her ear. She yawned and stretched herself before she opened her eyes. 'Ok, lets get up then.', she kissed me before getting up. Instead of cooking we ordered pizza and cleaned the living room real quick.

The doorbell rang. My stomache was twisting as I thought about what would happen soon.
'You don't have to look so worried. You already know my dad and he likes you!', Suvi said smiling at me before we opened the door. If she knew.
Her dad walked up the stairs and hugged both of us. In the moment we closed the door, it rang again for the pizza. Suvi and Vilho took seats at the table and I payed for the pizza and brought them to the table.

'And how are you doing here together?', Vilho began with some smalltalk. 'I think it is going great, what do you think, Suvi?', I said.
'Oh yes! And because I like it so much here in Helsinki, I decided to apply for university here.', Suvi said and took a bite of her pizza.
'What?', Vilho asked with a little smile on his face. 'That would be awsome, rakas!', I said and strokd over her back. 'Even if I'm often touring and so on, it would be great to have you here in Helsinki.'

'Mom will freak out if I tell her about my plan.', Suvi mumbled.
'About your mother...', Vilho began to talk. Now the time has come.
Suvi realized the sad sound of his voice. 'What is with mom?', she asked worried.
'I don't know how to tell you this...', Vilho's voice broke.
I took a deep breath and closed my eyes for a second. 'Your dad tries to tell you that your mom broke up with him.', I quickly said and my view switched between my girlfriend and her dad.

'What?', she asked in dispare. She was pale and her eyes filled with tears.
'Joonas is right. Your mom had told me she wants the divorce. She didn't want to tell you, but I couldn't lie to you, princess.', Vilho explained, a few tears left his eyes.
And then Suvi's body began trembling and shaking under her sobbing. She covered her face with her hands. I pulled her into my arms. I didn't know what to say anymore in this situation.
'Why?', I heard a little whisper against my chest.

'Sometimes you realize all your emotions for the other person are gone. I think this is what happened to your mother and me.', Vilho tried to explain. 'I couldn't be there for her all the years. I was on the road most of the time. That's why I am in Helsinki now. I am searching for an appartment. Your mom wants to stay in our house, and I have to leave in a few weeks.'
Suvi looked up, her eyes were red and  tears still streaming down her face.

'Mom is kicking you out? I...wow...she is ruining not only my life at the moment, but also yours.', Suvi's heart was broken. 'And why did you know about my parents divorce?', now she turned to face me.
I swallowed and opened my mouth. My throat felt like choked up.
'I told him...yesterday. I'm sorry, princess. And I told him he shouldn't tell you, because I wanted to.', Vilho explained. 'By the way, I'm sorry man. I didn't want to involve you like this.'
'It's ok, Vilho. I'm only worried and concerned about Suvi.', I said and tried to place a kiss on Suvi's hairline, but she backed away.

'For real? Why is everybody trying to save me from life? Why do others decide to better protect me from knowing the truth?', her broken voice got louder. Her eyes changed between Vilho and me. I knew it was a bad idea not telling her, but I wanted to respect Vilho's wish.
'Princess, you're not fair to him. He was actually the one that supported me to tell you as soon as possible.', Vilho stayed so quiet. He probably went to a lot of shit lately, this was only a little part of what he had to hear for weeks.

Suvi gasped for air. She jumped of her chair and disappeared in the bedroom.
I was sure she would go on the balcony for fresh air.
'You should go and talk with her alone. I think it's better for now.', I said to Vilho. He nodded and followed Suvi.
I felt like being wrong in my own home. It seemed wrong sitting here waiting. I grabbed the spare keys of Joel's  appartment I had in my kitchen drawer and went upstairs after leaving a short message:

Being at Joel's. I thought you need some space. Call me when you need me. I'm always there for you! <3

I opened the door and knocked in the same second as a sign for Joel.
By this time he was back as well, sitting on his couch. As soon as he saw me he stood up. 'Maaaan, what happened? You look like shit!', he said. We quickly hugged. I knew every corner of this flat, I got some shot glasses and took the half empty vodka bottle Joel had next to his laptop.
I drank two shots in the time Joel had one. Then I sat next to him and told him what had happened.

Suvis POV:
I needed fresh air. This was all to much for me.
All this years I thought my parents relationship is something I can look up to. I didn't want to loose this happy family life I had all this years. Again tears began streaming down my face
'Hei princess', my dad came on the balcony as well. 'I know this is a lot for you...but please don't push me or Joonas away. He is really a good man and I'm sure he will help you in this time. He cares so much for you.'

'Stop dad...you don't have to tell me, I know all this. I love Joonas a lot, but it's hard to see my whole life, I just had a few weeks ago, is now going to hell. Dad, if you have to move out...I don't want to live with mom. I can't stay in Vaasa.', I was sobbing. My dad pulled me in his arms. 'I understand you. But please talk to your mom. We should sit together and speak about our next plans. I would gladly move to Helsinki with you together if you want to. But don't shut out your mother.' he was still loving my mom a lot and for him the family was the most important thing, even if he was more away than home.

Would this be my future as well? Joonas would be always touring around the world, and I end up as a housewife, like Joel already said? When this was the reason my mom is going to divorce, then I had to make a decision for myself.

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I'm sorry it took me longer to upload this time.
As you see it's drama, and I'm always struggling to write drama 🙈

Suvi now knows that her parents are going to divorce. Will she move together with her dad?
Is she really questioning her relationship with Joonas because of this?

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