Out Of Town | A Blind Channel FF

28.Perfect angel eyes

'Pssssst! You gonna wake them!', I heard whispering voice, but I didn't want to open my eyes.
'Why are they here? Look how cute they are!', the second voice replied. My mind felt to heavy to recognize anything.
'Oh look, I think they recorded something.', the first voice mumbled.

I struggled to open my tired eyes, but a minute later I slowly woke up. Joonas was laying against my shoulder, his mouth a bit open. I supported his body to find a way to get up. He frowned and I worried I had woken him up, but quickly he slept again deeply. With quiet little steps I walked away and clasped my hand in front of my mouth, so I wouldn't scream. Aleksi and Joel were sitting at the table with headphones on.

Joel was the first to recognize me. 'Huomenta', he whispered. 'Do you feel better? You recorded something all this night?'
Now Aleksi turned around as well. I let out a little yawn. 'Sorry, yeah it was a long night. But you didn't listen to it, or?', I was afraid they would have listened to my voice. I felt so insecure showing this to other people.

Aleksi had a big smile on his face. 'Just listened to it. You're awsome!', he said and Joel slapped him on the back of his head. 'Oooouuuh.', Aleksi frowned and stroke over his hurting head.
'Ok, yeah we did. But as he said, it is amazing. How are you?', Joel was asking again how I felt. I didn't answer on purpose at first.
'Could be better, if I'm being honest.', I mumbled. 'What did I miss?', Aleksi asked.

Again Joel tried to slap him, but I got between them. 'Don't Joel, it's fine.', I let out a sigh. 'My dad told me, that my mom wants to divorce.'
Aleksi looked shocked.
'I'm sorry...', he stuttered. 'If you need someone to talk, I mean...you can talk to me. I went through the same...'

I only nodded. The last thing I wanted at the moment was talking about it with anybody but my parents. But I appreciated their support.
'Did you play everything yourself?', Aleksi probably felt that I needed to change the topic.
'Yeah, maybe', I mumbled and shrugged.

'It's really good. You should definitly plan on studying music production! How are your plans for that?', his smile cheered me up a bit. He was such a positive person.
'Well, I wrote applications, I planned on sending them in the next days. The main thing I planned to study was music technology here in Helsinki. If this isn't going as planned, my second one is for sound design.', I explained him. 'I don't want to leave Finland and Helsinki is the best location.'
He nodded. 'I'm pretty sure you'll get what you want. They would be dumb if they didn't decide for you.'

'Huomenta', greeted us a raspy, grumpy voice from behind. I turned around and saw my overly tired boyfriend that looked like he didn't get any sleep in ages.
I kissed him real quick. 'Go sit down, I'll get us all some coffee.', I said and grabbed my jacket.
'I'll help you. I'm sure you wouldn't find the next cafe!', Aleksi jumped off the seat.

We left the building. Cold wind met my face. Immediatly I had this feeling of sharp needles torturing my face from this freezing temperatures.
'How was it for you?', I asked Aleksi, not looking at his direction. Yet I had decided to talk with him about it, eventhough my first thought had been the oposit.

'I can still remember the day as it was yesterday that my parents told me. It was hard for me, as it might be for you now. I was lucky having siblings to share this situation with. My parents got both new partners quiet fast and both of them got children again. I have a few half-siblings now. At that time it was strange for me, but now it's like I have a huge family. It's getting better with time, as long as both stop living in the past and crying, but instead starting a new life. It makes many things easier.' Aleksi explained his situation.

'I'm an only child. I mean on one hand it is better it happened now that I'm an adult, kind of, but I am afraid of being used as the one passing on messages to the other part or having to hear all the shit about the other person. I don't want to get in between this.', I started to tell him about my fears. 'And I am afraid I will end up like my mother...' I sighed.