The Diary of a Broken Hearted Girl.

January 18th 2022

12:15am

i've been fighting back tears for hours. every other minute i think of her and i'm reminded of what i can't have. i'm reminded that i have to start over. i'm reminded that we will never get back together. i'm reminded that she has to be with someone else. i'm reminded that i have to move on. i'm reminded that we can't get married like we planned. i'm reminded that the love of my life cannot be mine anymore. i'm reminded that i have to let her go. i'm reminded of all the things that cannot be anymore and it crushes my heart over and over again. i'm tired. i'm tired of feeling all of these emotions again and again. i'm tired of being sad. i'm tired of my heart hurting. i don't want my feelings to be hurt every time i think of her. i don't want to be reminded of what i can never have again every time she pops up in my head. i don't want to think of her and someone else and be upset or cry. i just want to be okay. i want to be happy. i want to enjoy my life. i want to love again. i want to move on. i want to be free. but how can i be free if i have to live with this for the rest of my life? how do i live with not being able to have my soulmate? will i ever be genuinely happy again? what do i do from here? i love her.