The Diary of a Broken Hearted Girl.

February 13th 2022

2:25 am

i just went through the old notes in my phone dated all the way back from 2014 and let me just say... that shit was toxic and i could NEVER go through that stupid shit again with her. i dont know what it is tonight but i just do not give a fuck... i really sat here and thought about being with her and i could NEVER put myself through that toxic ass, inconsistent, pick and choose relationship ever aFUCKINgain.. i would rather have a car run over my toe, have 5 wasp sting me, or lick the floor of a jail cell. those notes brought back so much fucking trauma like i dont know what the fuck i was thinking. i let that shit slide for YEARS. 10/10 still love that girl but no fucking thank you. i'd rather shit until my brains fell in the toilet, or walk barefooted on black cemented roads in 100 degree weather. 0/10 do not recommend allowing yourself to deal with toxic people or relationships no matter how convincing it is. how in the fuck did i get coerced into an 8 year loop of toxic love? i fucking hate it here.