The Diary of a Broken Hearted Girl.

July 17th 2021

temporary feelings..

this isn't even half of what i could say to you... but the first thing that made me realize that i liked you was when you would spend your time with other people. i started to realize that i would get jealous if you were spending your time elsewhere. i started to realize that i felt some type of way watching you enjoy someone else's company. i started to realize that when i would see you show affection to someone else i felt some type of way. i started to realize that i always wanted to be with you or that i always wanted to do things with you like you were the person that popped up when i thought about making plans. i realized that i always wanted to spend time with you more than anybody else. i realized all of these things but i ignored it. i like you because you're selfless and because you're gentle and you love hard. the love that you give has been taken for granted so many times by so many people and it's unfortunate because if i could have your love i would have reciprocated it x1000... from the times that we've shared stories with each other i've noticed how similar we both are when it comes to loving someone and if we could exchange our love between each other it would forever be unmatched.. there would be no better love than our love. i like you because you're genuine.. you're giving, you're thoughtful.. you go beyond measures when it comes to the people you love. you are the perfect companion... i feel like when it comes to loving someone it's effortless for you.. you're everything that i've wanted in a person. i don't think anyone else could out love the way you love.... besides myself of course lmao. it literally blows my mind at how many people have let your love go to waste when your love is exactly what i've been looking for. i want you because you feel like home.. and because you make me content just by being around you. something about you makes me feel like i'm drawn to you and i keep getting more and more attached to you. you're easy to get hooked on..fast. i want you because you get me on edge simply by telling me exactly what you want to do to me. i feed in to the things you say to me and i fantasize about the things that would happen if we didn't hold out and said fuck it and fucked. the temptation i get from looking at your veins or watching you fight the urge to rub my leg when i purposely do things to get you to give in and just do it or when i look at your lips and i'm tempted to risk it all and just kiss you or when i notice that your veins are bulging and i go back and forth in my head on whether i should touch them or run my fingertips up and down your arm or when i'm sitting beside you and i get the urge to come closer or when i suddenly want to physically touch you because im clingy and that's my love language or when i want to hold your hand or i want you to give me physical affection in any little way. i want your love.. i want to experience the love that you give in more ways than just one. i want to be yours.