"Some days I can almost believe it was all a dream. Our love story seems so far away, like maybe it never happened. Maybe it really was all in my mind. Maybe my storytelling got the best of me. Were we really that happy? Once upon a time. How did we let it crash all to hell?" -Alfa
It's a funny little question isn't it, trying to figure out where everything went wrong. It really tears me apart, because it didn't have to be like this. But we just didn't love hard enough, or fight hard enough, and I don't know who's fault that is. I lay here every night trying to rack my brain with figuring out where everything went wrong. But I never really find an answer. I hate that so many things remind me of you, certain things I eat, certain things that you like, songs that you've shown me throughout the past nearly 5 years. It's so hard to have someone as such a constant in your life and finally be able to try and let them go, and it's so hard to realize that they're gone. Figured out what I'm gonna say to you if you try to reach out to me again, and I don't know how you would feel about it. But it would be the only game changer in this whole thing, a way to prove. I don't know, I'm just spiraling at the moment. Just missing everything that we used to have, and everything we wanted to be.
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2.5 Years
Non-FictionSomeone has told me that you grieve someone for half the time you've known them or longer. I don't want to grieve that long however this is my progress as to how I'm feeling.
