The Scenery of Waves (Teenage Series #1)

Chapter 15

The Scenery of Waves

Have you ever got curious about your future life or you are already expecting for something to happen? Naka plano na ba ang buhay na gusto mo o natatakot ka parin na baka hindi iyon ang kapalaran na para saiyo? What do you think will happen to you after graduating college, after getting accepted to a company, or after getting your first salary? What do you think will happen next?

Hanggang ngayon ay iniisip ko parin ang magiging buhay ko, oo mayaman ang pamilya ko at madali lamang para saakin ang makapagtapos sa kulehiyo dahil bukod sa talino na meron ako ay matiyaga rin ako sa pag-aaral. Ngunit tulad ng mga tao ay nangangamba rin ako kung ano ba talaga ang buhay na nakatadhana saakin. Magkakaroon ba ako ng mabuting asawa o ang asawang sasaktan at iiwanan lamang ako, ilan kaya ang magiging anak ko? magiging mabuting tao, asawa, at ina kaya ako? Hindi ko alam.

Ngunit kilala ko ang sarili ko, hindi ako 'yung klase ng tao na mababago ang ugali ng dahil lamang sa pera. Kailan man ay hindi ko naisipang maghiganti sa sino man, lahat ng tao ay may mabuting katangian ngunit ito ay nababalot ng galit kadalasan na s'yang nagiging sanhi ng masamang kaugalian. Kung tatanungin n'yo ako ngayon kung tama ba ang magpatawad sa lahat ng sitwasyon? Yes, forgiving doesn't mean that you need to accept their wrong doings or forgetting about it. It's about setting yourself free because you deserve it, you deserve to feel okay and not getting stuck from the past. Forgiving someone doesn't mean you need to trust them again, your past is not always dark and you don't need to hate yourself for experiencing it because it's a lesson. Lesson that can help you to grow, maybe as of now you're still crying because of it, maybe you're still trying to forget about it, maybe you are still figuring out what's wrong with you and why you deserved it.

We're still humans, we have dark moments and we're sometimes fragile. A toughest person had the most painful experience and maybe one day you become the person like them.

You deserve beautiful things to happen to you. You deserve miracles. You deserve to be loved in every way you ever dreamed you could be. You deserve everything you have worked and waited for. You deserve a good life. You deserve to feel everything you ever wanted, and you deserve to know that life is one infinite possibility. Be patient.

"Here." iniabot saakin ni Madi ang kape na hawak n'ya.

We're inside the Coffee Shop. I love how the stars shine and how the moon gave us light in this night time, relaxing. Nakatingin lamang ako sa glass wall habang tinatanaw ang mga nagliliwanag na bituin sa langit. This world is so perfect. May magagandang bagay na makikita sa kalupaan, katubigan or maging sa kalangitan. Tanging mga tao lamang ang bulag sa kagandahang taglay nito.

"I remember our tagaytay trip, it's been a long time since we went there." he chuckled.

I smile while reminiscing our moments there, ang tagal na rin pala n'yang nanliligaw saakin. He's been there for me from sh to college, sakan'ya ko ikinukwento ang problema ko at ang problema ng mga kaibigan ko. He's full of wisdom and knowledge at nagagawa n'yang intindihin ang ugaling kahit ang sarili ko ay hindi maintindihan. He made me feel so loved and important, his assurance and care for me. He loved me first but i think i fell harder.

"Madi!" pagtawag ko sa pangalan n'ya.

Nagmamadali itong lumingon sa akin at agad na ibinaba ang hawak na kape, tumayo pa ito at kinuha ang kape na hawak ko. "Why? What happened? napaso ka ba? I'm sorry i forgot to tell you na ang coffee shop na ito ang may pinaka mainit na kape, I'm sorry. Nasaan ang masakit hmm?"

"se mi novio" that means 'be my boyfriend', I don't know how to say yes and tell me him that i'm accepting him to be my boyfriend without sounding so sweet. I can't be romantic.

"h-huh?" inosenteng tanong nito.

"It's nothing, nevermind. Let's finish our coffee and get back to condo." ilang beses akong napakunok habang pinipigilang mapiyok.