Our future signed in letter

Chapter 3

High in the air:

The sadness and depression are so heavy in her bones. She just can't anymore. First she lost Eren many years ago and now she has to separate from Armin and his family. The only good thing is that she will have a chance to see him and his family again in a few years, when things have calmed down.

Mikasa has turned away from Onyankopon and leans her head against the window, so he doesn't notice that she has cried herself to sleep. She is not very familiar with the presence of the former anti-Marley alliance spy, even though they worked together against Eren 6 years ago. So she has tried the best to hide her tears, but she probably failed. But sleep lets her sink into a depth that she doesn't notice much any more.

She dreams of Eren and Armin as she always played with them and always had the urge to take care of both . For everything in the world she wanted to protect both of them. Now with Eren she failed miserably. She couldn't protect him from himself, and she is responsible for his death and has to live with the guilt. Back then it was called Eren or everyone else had to die. It was a logical calculation: one life against all life. What guilt was easier to bear: being responsible for the death of a loved one or the death of all of your friends. Very hard to say for her: Eren against Armin and Levi. Ultimately, she decided in favor of the life of Armin and Levi, and death for Eren.

As a young girl, she runs after Eren and Armin playfully and somehow tries to reach them. She stretches her right arm forward, only one meter, two, three ... She just can't reach either of them. They move further and further away from her. Until they both turn to her and both wave to her with a big smile . But she just doesn't get a step closer ... And when her despair threatens to overwhelm her, she wakes up in horror and holds her chest, breathing heavily.

She looks over at Onyankopon with sleepy eyes. "You finally woke up, you slept through half of the flight," he smiles, "at least you have at least a good night's sleep."

Mikasa assumes he is referring to her former captain. "Seems so", she says with a dry mouth. Onyankopon hands her a canteen with water, which she gratefully accepts and drinks a generous sip. "We have to make a short stop in Cairo to fill up with kerosene and water. Otherwise we make an involuntary landing in the Mediterranean Sea and go swimming or pass out due to dehydration. "

Mikasa has never heard of such places and Onyankopon understands her questioning look, “Gabi and Falco are also in London with the captain. They often help out in our tea shop and Falco is trained to be the next successor of me and Levi. The two have a globe and literature on the geography of the world in their household. The two will show you and teach you a lot. "

“Gabi and Falco have a common household?” Mikasa finds this hard to believe. Both are at least 7 years younger and should therefore be around 18 years old. “Yes, for half a year. You can't blame either of them. Both are children of war and are looking for their peace with each other, "says Onyankopon thoughtfully," the captain makes dry remarks about the fact that both are only engaged to exchange their first sexual experiences with his dirty mouth. But he is not entirely wrong about it. We all expect that Gabi will soon announce the good news that she will be pregnant with her first child. "

Mikasa looks at Onyankopon with wide eyes. She can imagine how Levi's remark about them sounds in her ears and laughs inwardly. A giggle derails from her lips.

“The captain should take care of his affairs rather than give advice about Gabi and Falco. Isn't it Mikasa? ”He winks at her mischievously. She is embarrassed again.