Getting Out While You Can

Getting Real

A part of me was disappointed that I woke up alone, but I crept out of the room and down the stairs. I was happy to see that the kitchen was empty and I beelined for the coffee pot, pouring myself a cup and leaned against the counter.

My head hurt and my eyes hurt, and my mind was screaming at me. I couldn't believe I did that! I couldn't believe that I kissed him. I shook my head and gulped another mouthful of my coffee and wandered to the window by the table. The snow was falling heavily and I frowned, noticing how barren everything looked in the dark.

"So, is there any reason why Belikov left early this morning to go to the gym? Or why you didn't sleep in your own room last night?"

I groaned and turned to find Christian walking around the island to put his mug in the sink, Fanny not fair behind with her own. Fanny had a grin on her face as she looked at me. I sighed and set my cup on the table. Fanny's nose was bruised, blue and black around the bridge and her one eye was starting to colour the same.

"Yeah. What was that all about?" Fanny asked sarcastically, crossing her arms over her chest as she leaned back against the counter. I narrowed my eyes at her and then looked at Christian.

"It's nothing."

"Sure," Fanny said, drawing it out as an indication that she knew I was lying. Christian looked between us before Fanny gave him a look, and he exited the room. Fanny raised her brows at me and I picked up my mug, walking towards he and filling my cup again.

"Are you going to tell me, or are you going to make me guess? I will pull the concussion card!

"I kissed him, okay!" I snapped, sighing to myself. I didn't have a reason to snap at her, but I was already feeling high strung.

"What?!"

I gave her a look and leaned against the counter beside her, wrapping my arms around my stomach.

"I kissed him last night. I was having a really bad night so I went in there to sleep next to him because I wanted comfort and sort of fell apart. He was awake and I just...ugh!" I explained before brining my hands up to my face, covering myself with them. I was a little mortified that I did it. He had told me long before that he didn't love me, or want me, and there I was crawling into his bed and kissing him.

"Well, did he tell you to leave?"

"No."

"Did he push you away?"

I thought about it before shaking my head. "No, not exactly. But I was kind of a mess."

"Did he tell you not to do it again?" Fanny asked, and I knew she was trying to prove a point, but it didn't help.

"No," I sighed as I pulled my hands away from my face. "But-"

"No, no buts," she said holding a finger up to stop me, "You went in, you cried, you kissed him, and I can almost guarantee that he kissed you back. He didn't kick you out of his bed after. Sure, he got up and went for a workout before you woke up, but maybe he's confused too? I mean, you two have been separated for a few years now. Maybe things have changed? Feelings have changed?"

I shrugged and tossed my hands up in the air in confusion when the front door bang shut, both of us jumping slightly. We heard the sound of shoes being taken off and then footsteps towards the kitchen. I chewed on my lip when the person entered.

Dimitri set his duffle bag on the counter and gave us both a curt nod and a small smile.

"Coffee?" I asked, looking for something to say or do.

"Sure," Dimitri said politely and I turned to get a mug out of the cupboard.

"Well, I should probably get off to the medic center, I need to have my head looked at," Fanny said and slipped out of the kitchen before I could stop her. I cleared my throat as I turned and set Dimitri's cup on the counter in front of his, giving him a tight smile.