[ partly dialogue ]
[ stand alone ]
// previously known as "Hey Neighbor | A Dialogue Story\\
When a mute foster kid moves in next door to a deeply insecure homeschooled girl that lives in the middle of nowhere, them meeting is slim even when the cl...
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I've had three absent seizures today. If I had to guess why, lack of sleep might be the reason. I also haven't been taking my medication when I should, which they're gonna get on my ass about, although it's not like it'll matter in a few weeks anyways.
Deciding to go along with the surgery has been one of the hardest decisions I've ever had to make before. While being underage gives my mom permission to decline or accept the offer of surgery, she gave me free rein. She said it was my life, that I should listen to my heart.
Was my choice fueled by hope or something else?
I can't help but look at him through the window as he strums along to the same song. It's become ritual almost. Every day around two o'clock after he gets done with homework, Jasper sits on the porch with his guitar. He knows at that point I'm waiting by the window, waiting for the peaceful tune to carry in the breeze feeling the sunshine down on my skin and wash away all the worries plaguing my mind.
I sit here and I think, I think about everything that's gotten me to this point in life. I think about all the people that aren't in it and all the people—being the few that they are—who stand by my side knowing the truth. My truth.
A soon to be seventeen-year-old barely scraping by surviving purely on luck alone.
Is it just luck? Luck can't be the only factor. It wouldn't make any sense. I've been getting filled with hope. Hope for a future. Hope that someday somebody will come up with a permanent solution for this disease and being the equivalent chemo treatments are to cancer. But it's not just hope either, no.
It's love.
I'm sixteen years old and I believe I'm falling in love at the tail end of my life.
Some people would laugh at that. A teenager, much less a girl, believing they've found the one. While I'm not sure on that part for the time being, I know what I feel. I know what he makes me feel. It's not like anything I've experienced before.
I can sit next to him without squirming with anxiety. Our shoulders can touch the slightest and I won't back away out of fear. It's driving my heart insane. My head has been muddled thoughts.
Whenever were together, it feels like a breath of fresh air. My lungs expand to their maximum capacity, and I release a smile full of dopamine.
Every day I find something to be thankful for. And today that's him.
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Love is in the air guys. It's contagious. It's so beautiful, just like every person reading this XD.
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