Chasing Her Heart

38| Undying Grieve |

Inna Lillahi Wa'inna Ilaihi Raji'un. We belong to Allah and to Him we shall return. Although we often forget about or guiltily pushed away from our thoughts, the fact remains that this world is but temporal. Death is the only thing certain for us all, and is the only thing truly guaranteed in this life. None of us can know when our time with death has come, and we must truly believe, accept, and embrace whatever Allah has Planned.

And all we have to do is keep on praying for the our dead ones, for their soul to rest in jannatul Firdaus.

It's already a week and Amina hasn't said a thing to anyone. She will just keep on crying and staring at one place without uttering a thing for hours. After the news was delivered to them, Alhaji Ahmad cancelled his plan of going to Singapore, he took his whole family to Maiduguri and they'll be spending some time there before going back to Abuja.

He couldn't bring himself to believe that his mother is dead, she is no more. But he won't be able to change that right ? So, he had to accept the fact that she is in a better place, In Shaa Allah.

Amina buried her face in her palms as she sobbed uncontrollably. The only thing Kaka need now is prayers, but she can't help it. How is she going to live her life without her backbone, her life supporter and the reason she is alive ? She was even thinking of going back to Maiduguri and now that kaka is no more her stay in Abuja is definitely permanent now, her life is ruined now, completely. She can't even imagine her life without Kaka, how will she cope ?

"Amina stop crying please and eat something."Salima Fa'iza's daughter stated, placing a plate of jollof rice in front of her. Amina raised her head up, her eyes bloodshot and shook her head at Salima bursting into another fit of tears.

"Don't be obstinate please, we are also in grieve and you didn't see us starving ourselves right?"Salima insisted, her voice breaking she was also close to tears. Kaka has been nothing but nice to everyone, why won't they cry, they lost a wonderful woman.

Fa'iza entered the room together with her last born, Habiba. "Did she eat anything?"She inquired taking a sit beside Salima. Salima shook her head at her and wiped away the tear that slipped, she quickly stood up and ran to her room, she couldn't handle the tears.

Their family house is completely full with thousands of people, Fa'iza suggested that Amina should stay in her house which isn't very far from the family house. She will be better off without seeing a lot of things that will remind her of Kaka. It will only worsen her condition.

"Meema."Fa'iza called taking Amina's hand in hers, she held it tightly and continued. "You need to stop crying Meema, it won't do any good, keep on praying for kaka, and eat your food. If kaka was here will she appreciate you starving yourself ? Here eat up."Her voice was a little bit loud, to make Amina understand that she is very serious.

Amina shook her head and threw her arms around Fa'iza, and cried louder. Fa'iza sighed and patted her back lightly to calm her down. "It's okay Meema, enough now stop crying."

Amina is trying her best to accept the truth, but she is finding it hard to do so. Crying won't be of any help, she know that but her emotions are taking the best of her. She can't control herself, how she wished they will understand the kind of pain she is going through. Her life is miserable without kaka being there for her, but they won't understand that. Only she knows what's paining her deep inside. She won't be able to eat anything.

She wiped off her tears, even though it was of no use as the tears won't stop beaming down her cheeks.

"Meema don't argue with you me."Fa'iza said, pulling her out of her sad reverie. She is also being strong, if she is weak then who will take care of the young ones ?

For that she is being strong or at least she is trying to be strong.

"Don't make it hard for me."Amina ignored her and kept staring at the food. Not because she wants to eat it, only because she won't be able to look Fa'iza in the eye.

Fa'iza got tired, why wouldn't she ? Amina is so stubborn. She stood up and left the living room. Habiba remained seated staring earnestly at Amina, she has always been the best aunt to her, nice and very easygoing. She doesn't scold nor does she get angry at trivial matters, but seeing Amina sad and shattered like this is paining her a lot.

"Ya Meema, please eat and stop crying you'll make me cry too."Habiba mumbled unsure whether that's enough to make Amina eat.

Amina ignored her and stood up, slipped on her dark brown hijab before leaving the house. Habiba tried to stop her but she didn't bulge, Habiba ran to tell her mother, she was afraid that Amina might try to harm herself.

She walked quietly to their family house, she wanted to be in her room, maybe she will be able to get some peace of mind and even sleep a little. Why will they keep on insisting that she eats, she already made it clear to them that she have no appetite, she won't enjoy the food without kaka being here.

Amina said her Taslim and entered through the back door where she met a lot of people, and they were doing exactly what she was afraid might happen; staring at her as if they've seen a ghost or worst a Dracula.

Like always, she ignored her and went further into the house, and straight to her room. She didn't care to greet anyone there. She met like 10 girls in her room, they were all busy eating and chattering as if nothing happened, Halima included but she isn't that active like the rest.

Such is life. Why will you keep hating on someone when one day you'll be no more ? People will come just to eat rice and gossip, this life is nothing.

Amina sat herself quietly at the edge of her bed and rested her head on her pillow crying softly to herself. She doesn't know how much she is badly missing Kaka and the thought of not ever seeing her again crossed her mind which made her cry more. Why won't she just have a memory loss, that way she won't have anything to worry about in this life, her mind will be fresh like a baby's own.

With dried tears all over her face, Amina managed to fall asleep. To wash away all her sorrows for the day.

Issaaaaa double update !!!!

Yayyyyy who is excited ? I know you're

Sha how was the chapter ? Sad I know and also a little boring but I'll make it up to you.

So Kaka passed away 🤧 I pity Amina, do you think she will be able to cope ?

Ria ❤️