Kynedy Carter

mall cop...11

I looked back to my dad he yelled my name loud enough the city heard it. I turned over and he was running to me. I was in so much trouble I just knew it.

"Dad", I said.

"I am glad you're okay, you scared me. I thought I lost you.", he sat next to me.

"You're not gonna yell at me and tell me I am the worst daughter ever?", I looked at him confused.

"Have I ever done that?", I shook my head.

"I am sorry about what Tina did and told you. While it's nice you help with the twins it is not your job, you are still a kid. You don't owe us nothing and you have never been a burden."

"You're not just saying this for what Tina said or do you think the same as her." I said.

"I have never once thought of you that way, I have always fought to have you with me. I love you, you are my daughter and you're so resilient. Everything you have gone through and you're still very sweet, you do your best to help people. I can't be thankful enough that you're my daughter. Just please dont runaway like that, tell me if anyone is bothering you tell me. I don't care it could be as simple as uh Bey didn't cook it right I wanna know. I am your dad and that doesn't mean I control or anything it means I want know whats going on, I want to be there for you however I can. So just talk to me I don't care what anyone else says, if you tell me something I am all ears and I will do whatver I can to make the situation better.", he said.

"Okay can we just sit here for a second, I am not ready to go back.", I asked.

"Yeah I do have to make a target trip at the end of this. As a warning.", he said.

"Thats cool", I sat looking at the waters.

"What was it like being with my mom when she was good? Did she care for me?", I asked.

"She was patient with you at first she just couldn't handle being a mother. She never wanted to be proven wrong and that was her biggest mistake. I wanted to tell you she was nice but she never really was. It was only in short times she was a good person.", he said.

"That's what I thought I remember being with her at modeling gigs enjoying five seconds then her storming out. I remember it was rare she ever finished, then when she moved in with her it was like a switch turned on. Not a good one."

"I know she had that switch before you. As much as you wanna know where it went wrong I don't think we will ever know. Even if we do it won't change anything I think it will just hurt you more. Everyone wants that one thing justifying everything like almost a cure but sometimes it doesnt exist. And thats okay, I know its hard I feel awful for saying it. Just know when you were born your mom she loved you it was all about you. She was the happiest she had ever been and at the same time she didn't know how to handle peace in her life and well its history. You were never the problem she just couldn't handle peace in her life."

"I never realized that", I thought about.

I might never know what the first domino pushed looked like I just knew that whatever it was it did not involve me. I found some peace.

"I feel a little more at peace now", I said.

"Sometimes you gotta search for peace sadly this is a wound that never heals its always gonna be there. You will though be able to live life without it affecting you so much. Give it time things will get better.", he smiled.

"Yeah thats true I think I am ready, lets go to target.", I said.

"Alright come"

We got up from the sand I shook it all off and we headed to the golf. That is when you know you made it you got a golfcart on top of multiple cars. We did have to switch cars because the golfcart would not be fast enough for the main roads.
I was looking around the girls section in Target my dad was doing the actual shopping for things we need. I was thinking of some new summer outfits, I had picked out a few things. There was another girl around looking I didn't pag to much attention until she approached me.