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^Darren Pov^
I woke up the next day immediately depressed from remember what happened yesterday as so for this baby in my stomach. I looked over at the side of the bed and saw no regie.
I stood up and walked into the bathroom closing the door. I looked through the cabinet and saw the knife. I use whenever I think of the past or my dad. I usually sing his poem to calm me down.
I grabbed the knife and slit my arm. Now saying the poem again.
If you have to ask WHY ME?
When your feeling really blue,
When the world has turned against you
And you don't know what to do.
I began to slit my other arm slightly and began my legs. I whinced in pain about kept saying the poem.
When it pours colossal rain drops
And the roads a winding mess,
And you're feeling more confused
Then you could ever express,
When the sudden sun won't shine
I began crying while I put the knife down and grabbed toilet paper to pat my mark and wipe the blood. I began saying the poem again.
When the stars will not align,
When you'd rather be
Inside your bed,
The covers pulled
Above your head,
When life is something
That you dread
And you have to ask WHY ME?...
Then when the world seems right and true,
When rain has left a gentle dew,
When you feel happy being you,
Please ask yourself WHY ME? Then, too.
I cried silently and stepped out the bathroom with my arms wrapped in bandages along with my legs.
I saw regie up watching tv and I slowly got in the bed cuddling up into his chest.
"Hey bud! You ok?" he asked then looking at my wrapped arms and legs. He looked into the bathroom I forgot I left the door open and the knife still on the floor.
"Baby what happened to your arms and legs!" Regie asked softly with a worried tone. I cried into is embrace. "I- I h- hurt my- myself" I cried into his shoulder soaking his tshirt. He pulled away and grabbed my hands rubbing them softly. "Baby why did you do that? You know how much has been going on I can't afford to lose you now or ever. Never leave m or try to do that again! You are so speacial my angel seeing you like this hurts my heart! You are loved by me, oliver sebastian and ryan- hell even jennie and Rose. I hate that you harm your pretty body! Please know that I am always here for you and this little nugget in your tummy. I'm not going anywhere you can't get rid of me baby!" Regie let his tears out as well before kissing my nose I smiled at his words then looking at my stomach rubbing it.
"Let's get ready for school d- daddy..we do have a test today!" I mumbled out and got up from the bed and walked over to the bathroom getting in the shower. After that I went into the closer putting on a sweater and some jean's. I looked in the mirror then brushed my teeth. I brushed my hair. Then walked out as regie walked in to freshen up.
I walked downstairs only to be greeted by Oliver sitting on the couch with his clothes on for school and sebastian making toast ready to go to school aswell.
"Y'know Darren why don't you post on your Instagram anymore?" Sebastian asked as I went into deep thought. "I dont post bc I don't have any need to! But I could start posting a little often:)" I smiled and went over to sebastian kissing the head and smacking his ass, then running away. "Hey! Come back here you little b- boy!" Sebastian said catching himself from saying a bad word.
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I laughed at all the comments especially sebastian's he always writes weird comments under everyone's post.
"You guys ready to go to school?" Oliver asked standing up from the couch laughing and the comments a long with sebby to.
Regie came downstairs eventually and walked out to the house quickly grabbing my hand. I felt a sudden shyness form in my stomach not from the baby, but from having my heart flutter and drop down to my stomach!
This is the one I want to spend my life with Regie Macalino. I dont think he's ever asked me to be his boyfriend yet but until he does I'll be waiting right here for him.
We all got in the car and starting singing bts songs. We spent the whole ride listening to regie trying to rap sugas part- which was hilarious. Now I get it! These people are my home! I love these people.
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