Broken Mirror

Chapter 7

I laid across the bed and laid my head halfway off the bed and he walked up with his big dick, as I looked up and opened my mouth to put his dick deep in my throat! The spit slowly running off the side of my face onto the floor and the noise of me gagging, he watches his dick go in and out my throat he moans and puts his hands up in the air. When I finally turned around to let him put his dick inside my wet pussy but he had other plans, he turned me around and put his tongue on my vagina and the feel of his wet tongue felt so good. I grip the bed as he licks slower and passionately. The wetness from me squirting lands on his beard and he gets up to kiss me and let me taste. NOT gonna lie, it tasted good as he went down one more time. He did the unexpected and began to eat my ass, and omg he made me fall in love even more. I was so surprised because this man always said he would never eat ass but oh baby i was the one he decided to do it on. score right? Anyway we were talking for awhile and later on he had a baby by a delusional bitch but as he was lying i still stayed and the drama just kept coming, anyway he moved in with her and one day he asked me to come over while she was at work. He even had his daughter there at the time. He wanted me to come over to fuck me on her bed, as I told him no he would go on about how he didn't care and it's his bed anyway. As much as I wanted to, I couldn't allow myself to be so low. Every moment the bitch will come for me all I wanted to show her what or who she really was. A month after they moved in together she put him out and he called me to tell me he wanted to spend time with me and he never wanted to lose me and please understand that I wasn't staying because I wanted to, he would tell me all this sweet shit and how much he loved me and hated her. However, the only reason he would keep dealing with her was because of the child and if he left she would take his daughter away from us. The drama progressed over the weeks and as he and I were out she followed us from super 8 to Delaware where she ran her car into mine. THen there was beef i sat in fron of his mom house waiting for the stupid bitch but hse never showed and of course when things kind of blew over he still was dealing with her. I never understood why she was mad because she knew exactly what "her man" was doing.
maybe a year later
When things got more serious between him and I started doing a lot of freaky things he moved in with me and he was buying stuff, paying rent, getting my hair done and he was so obsessed with he would run up so much money on me. 500 dollar bed etc etc.... he would constantly tell me how much he hated his babymom i was sick and tired of the back and forth between me and her it became a problem for me, but through all the hurt the sex was always amazing we would fuck and we would make love kissing spitting in each other mouth, then i started to suck his balls more and more and as things got more and more passionate i started to eat his ass and he loved it. He would get on all fours and allowed me to lick his hole and sometimes put my tongue in his ass, he never wanted me to leave it was like a lifetime movie, he would sit in front of my house to see who else im dealing with, all the crying and negging me to stay just so he can go back to the bitch he hated so much. She took him to miami and the whole time he was texting me tellling me how much he sorry and he was bored and he didn't fuck her.
lifetime movie
before that she would find my number and text me and call me as if she was some type of crazy bitch lmao I'm crazier. I guess she thought being friends with my mom was gonna stop me from whooping her ass lol. I felt like I was in a rela lifetime movie with these two, and wouldn't understand why she would be so mad at the next bitch and he was the one embarrassing her. He was a liar and my dumb ass was staying and forgiving him over and over.
The rundown of it all

It was my 28th birthday when I was getting to the point of falling too deep with this guy. He was single and I was too but I was loyal but for the first time in forever I felt alive tonight. It was family and friends over at my house and we were drinking and just having fun. Maybe 4 hours into it i found out the guy i was dealing with was at a babyshower for a kid he didn't want and a bich he claimed he hated, anyway i'm not here to talk about anyone they not worth it, so the night got better and i cried for like 10 minutes and then i wiped my eyes finished up my drink and had fun on my bday. An hour laer he and his friends walked in with the same clothes he had on at his baby shower and not only did he come in as if he was that nigga or he had no worry in the world, i remembered who the fuck i was. I never was a person who played fair and I always planned ahead. I can be loyal but I also can be the bitch you see in your nightmares. so when he went to sleep and others started leaving, my brother friend and i started talking and i took matter into my own hands so we were in the kitchen and i dropped my clothes as if it was just me him in the house, as my " man" laid in here on my bed sleep i was getting fucked by this guy with a big dick on my stove, the moans was loud and the slurping on his dick got wetter it was prolli one of the best drunk sex i had in a long time.
Might sound crazy but the more i thought about how this played me out so many times i went harder and harder on someone else dick, he walked out the room maybe 20 minutes after we were done. Two days later i was upset about something i don't remember but anyway i was fucking this guy in my bed. Moral of the story hurt people hurt people asked this guy to neer play me out or make me look dumb and all he did for 3 years was just that. I changed my ways and he set me back 10 times and the moment im upset i wanted reenge and revenge was to get fucked by someone else. we single right? sex was therapy to me and i just knew i needed it. HUrting people is something I didn't like doing but for some reason this guy turned me into someone I never wanted to be again. I used and hurt people that I should've never hurt. It was men who wanted me just for me and I decided to keep staying with this guy who was straddling both sides of the fence. I was doing everything as if i was a girlfriend but the drama and the lies made me fall out of love, when i got his name atted i knew it was wrong but i was dumb and so fucked up over him i just didn't notice how stupid i was looking. Taking him back over and over i knew i was wrong and down playing myself, i tried to leave so many times but it was the hardest thing to do. when he would be with her and then come to me like it was ok and he didn't give two fucks i just knew it wasn't gonna end well, he betrayed me, disrespected me and all this i was allowing all because he had a good dick haha i was told " when you do things over and over and expect change, it's a sign of insanity" now that i left him i see what they meant, i was allowing so much i lost hope in what reality was. We tend to allow toxic love be normal when it's not! In the 3rd year i went through hell. He was great person but he just had so many issues he just didn't know how to treat me.
HEALING
I began to heal later on when he moved to Colorado, now look I know I was wrong for doing what I'm about to reveal to you guys but we can't help who we fall in with, we can't possibly know why God brings people in your life but there's plenty of reason on why. So anyway the guy i talked about previously had plenty of people around him and they all were cool but one stood out and one of them was always there for me when i needed anything, the times i needed the other guy and he was laid up with someone else it was this guy who would be there, we outed our feelings for each other and we grew so close and we begin to see each other, the way he make me smile and make me feel was unmatched. He called me everyday and was just there when I needed comfort. I cried to him and then we laughed together and began to grow love for each other.
MAKING LOVE TO ME
I pulled up to his place and as i walked in it was this candle burning and for some odd reason i can smell the candle before the door opened, as he took my hand and led me into his place he kissed my lips and told me i will never hurt or cry again due to being hurt, he said i promise to love you and never treat you like your nothing. We were keeping this secret and the feelings were getting stronger for each other. Later that night after a long convo he pulled my pants down and began to taste me as if I was his dinner and kissed me and stuck his dick inside me while looking into my eyes. It was the best moment ever. My pussy began to squirt on his big dick and I moaned louder til the neighbors in the next room could hear me, when he took his dick out of my pussy and quickly put it into my mouth to taste my own juices. fuck baby he moaned out loud and put his lips against mine by the look of his face i can tell he was enjoying every moment of what my body was giving him. I couldn't breathe when I was away from him. His touch and everything about him just made me feel so different, he made me feel like I was the only one in the world.
BIGGEST MISTAKE
My biggest mistake i made was allowing the previous guy back in my life, when he came back from colorado he said so much stuff to get me to come back and when he did things were different, he was now living with me and i hurt the person i actually loved, when he started selling weed i was seeing more of the love of my life but this secret was killing me, the secret meet up was killing me. When i would lay next to him all my problems was over and then i would come home to a self centered son of bitch, i knew he was still fucking his babymother and i just was disgusting every time he touchedme and when he would leave i knew exactly where he was going. I loved him but when i started seeing his friend all my feelings vanished. I stayed because I saw the potential, saw the love he had for me. The words of him telling me he love me but then will be ok with laying nect to his babymother who he claimed he hated and she was just a side bitch who is dumb and give him money even when he disrespect her. Who

would leave that right? When she hit my car and he did nothing about it, I look back on why I stayed for so long and why I continued to allow him to do this to me. I was already damaged but damn it man he damaged me so bad i just broke down and began to be the old me. You guys, I really don't care how anyone looks at me and judges me! We all have a pass and we just all need to learn to hold ourselves accountable for our own actions and what we put up with. When I finally got the strength to leave him, it was only right to go back and fight for who I'm in love with. Big mistake! He had anew girlfriend and now we back to sqaure one and now all this did was push me back closer to the man i digged the wall so hard to get out, the sex was amazing but i was still dealing with man who did't care anything about m feelings. I never gave up on who I love and till this day he is still the love of my life.