Broken Mirror

Chapter 8

While the night was still young I was driving down this back road looking for a way to end it. I came across this little lake and I sat on the edge of the water feet half way in. The little pocket knife I grabbed off the table of someone's house I used to cut my wrist. The tears I cried sitting out there probably filled half the lake, the blood I dropped into the lake probably was half of what I had in me. When I laid down on the sand that was there I looked up to the sky and I counted 4 stars that were all together. For some odd reason I thought of my kids as if the stars were telling me that none of this is worth it. How can I explain to them who their mom was and what she was going through? They will hate me and I knew I couldn't handle the thought of them hating me for leaving them so many nights and trying to find love to piece my life back together. They didn't deserve that so I had to do this so their lives could be so much better.
Feeling dizzy I passed out and as the tide got higher a splash of water on my face awakened me, when I looked up I saw this woman standing on the side of me asking if I was ok! She saw the blood and asked if she could take me to the hospital but I kindly told her I was ok and walked to my car. The cut must wasn't that deep for me so as I sat in my car, I decided to text this guy who worked as a barber in town. He always had liquor and of course big dick to get rid of how i'm feeling. First I went home to shower and change and cover my arm as if nothing ever happened. walking up his steps to go to his house i started to remove my clothes and soon i walked in i wanted to put my mouth on his big piece and all i wanted was to feel pain, when he put his dick inside i begged for for him to go harder and deeper, my creamy pussy making the sound like he he were stirring something, the sweat from his face dripped onto my shoulder and his dick got harder inside. I turned around for more pain for him to put his dick in my ass "oh how that took all my hard times away. Fighting pain with pain was my way of coping. I guess I couldn't find love, the person i loved the most didn't know if he wanted me or someone else.

The after life

So last night one of my friends came over and we were up talking and laughing! After a long movie and snacks we became tired and went to bed! As she was sleeping next to me I began to feel her pussy and omg she was so wet! I was wondering to myself would she wake up angry or would she like it! As I rub more she began to move and moan! She opened her eyes and saw it was me and was stuck for a second! We started kissing and she became more and more wet! As I went down and started tasting her she moaned and began to clutch my hair! Mmmmm baby don't stop she moans in a sexy voice! As I got up and began to rub my pussy against hers! The feeling was so good we couldn't resist! She whispered in my ear and said I've been waiting for this baby!
Every chance we got,we would sneak off! She and I both knew if our family found out that they wouldn't approve! We were so in love and just couldn't resist each other! One night at a restaurant the chemistry was so crazy we went into the restaurant bathroom and locked the door! The love making was so intense! The taste of her just was good in my mouth! The noise of our wet pussies together was all so good! All these things we did no one still figured it out! The next day my family went through a bar b que. She and I attended together and my family still thinks we are just best friends. The music was playing and the food was good! We danced and played games and all we could do was lock eyes, the love was fire and the love making was like a volcano! Anyway we snuck off and for some reason she kept saying she felt like somebody was following us but no one was behind us as we went into the bathroom we began to kiss and again her pussy ended up in my mouth as she moaned and told me she loves me we hear someone! As we look the door opens and my aunt stands there in disbelief, she takes off down the hallway back out the door! My aunt was so nosey she didn't care what she said I just knew she was gonna tell! Megan and I walk out and my aunt yells can I have everyone's attention? It gets quiet and everyone rounds up! I stand there with my heart to my feet! A little while after my aunt yells to me paula do you have anything to say? I shook my head no and she goes well I was just upstairs and I seen paula and Megan having sex!
Everyone turns around to me and asks was this true? I was so stunned I couldn't say anything,when I got the courage I stood up on the chair and told everyone that I was sorry for leaving them in the blind! I stated that I was in love and they may not like it but if you guys love me you will accept it! Megan and I is seeing each other and yes we were having sex in the bathroom is what I ended my conversation with! As I got off the chair I grabbed Megan and kissed her and told her I loved her and we walked off to the car and left! Things are getting so serious between the two of us we moved in together and since that incident at my family bar b que I haven't heard from anyone! Life goes on and that's what she and I did!

1 year later
Megan and I have known each other for over a decade and today marks a year since we became a couple! As I'm waiting for Megan to get dressed and get ready to celebrate our 1 year anniversary I get a phone call from one of my family members a year later asking could they talk? I hung up and kept it pushing! As my baby comes down the steps looking gorgeous we head out to this club called boobs and bar! The name was weird but it was very elegant and very well kept! Hi my name is Tonya and I will be your waitress today! This waitress was so jolly but very beautiful! Megan ordered water and I ordered a Long Island margarita! Hey babe imma go to the bathroom Megan says! When she disappeared into the bathroom the waitress came back with our drinks and a piece of paper with her number on it! I whispered to myself this is wrong. I love my girlfriend! Megan comes around the corner and I slip the paper in my wallet. So we went on and enjoyed the rest of our night and got on out of there! The sex was good that night I made her squirt and shiver all over our bed! After that was done I couldn't sleep. It was just something about that waitress I couldn't get out of my head! Don't get me wrong Megan was 5'5 light skinned long hair and pretty teeth but this woman was something different! As I got ready to leave for work I kissed Megan goodbye and when I got into the car I called this waitress and she answered! Hey wassup I said she said hey I been waiting for you to call! I have a girlfriend, why do you give me your number! I asked if she said well sometimes if you want something you go for it! Now I'm thinking her ambition is crazy! After work we met up somewhere and we talked and talked! The whole night felt wrong but it felt right! Idk what it is about this woman but I was doing some crazy stuff! One night I told Megan I was staying at my family house to talk about things and get back right with them! At this time Megan was in L.A on a business trip! Only thing wrong was I was spending time with Tonya every night since Megan was gone! Last night was the first night Tonya and I had sex! There were candles and slow music and as I kissed her body from head to toe the look and her eyes showed something different! Her body was perfect and as she laid there with her almond skin all I could do was caress her body! As I lay there after sex we sit and we talk and she telling me she's falling for me and all I could do was think of Megan! But when I think of Megan all the feelings are different! Whatever Tonya is doing she is making me fall out of love with Megan. How can I tell the person I love and known for a decade I was falling for someone else?