Finding My Way

I Would Follow You

Y/N's POV

I lay wide awake in bed knowing Chase is almost done with his tour. He has one show left tomorrow night, and then he'll be back home. Even though I've been actively avoiding him, I still miss seeing him in school. Not long after he posted that he was going on tour, I put my TouchBand on, secretly hoping that he had his on, too. I couldn't tell if he did when he was here, but ever since he left, the band has been vibrating. He seems to touch it randomly throughout the day, shocking me with the small vibrations, but I can't help but hope it was really him touching me, and not some stupid rubber bracelet.
As if on cue, the bracelet vibrates, lighting up blue as I picture slowly running his fingers down my wrist.
I unlock my phone and start looking through my photo gallery at all the pictures we took together. I stop on one of us at Disney, he was giving me a piggyback ride when one of their professional photographers stopped us for a picture in front of Cinderella's Castle, claiming we were the cutest couple she's seen. I smile at the memory, a single tear rolling down my cheek. God, I miss him.
A notification pops up on my screen that says:

lilhuddy has started a live video

The notification disappears and I swipe down to bring it back up again. Staring at it, I try to decide if I should watch it. I really hope he's doing good and enjoying the tour. I tap on the notification before I can change my mind, waiting for Instagram to load.
It finally loads, cutting Chase off mid sentence as he says, "not yet, tomorrow's the last day so." He shrugs helplessly, but I'm clearly missing something. Yeah tomorrow's the last day, but what was the not yet about?
"I think it's really over," he coughs abruptly.
I look at the comments to see a bunch of people are tagging me and saying that I'm here, that I'm watching him.
Chase looks up and scans the screen before looking at the camera eagerly, "y/n? You're here?"
My eyes widen as I look at the screen, taking in the look of surprise and happiness on his face.
"Y/n, I know you're watching this. I've been wearing my TouchBand," he lifts his right hand to show the blue band. "I... uh, I really miss you." He takes a deep breath and I can see his eyes are glistening with unshed tears. "I left something important with Gwen, it explains some stuff and... well, it's self explanatory. Please listen to your voicemails. I... I miss you and love you, y/n. I hope you know that."
Tears start streaming down my face at the last sentence. I miss him and love him so much, that I almost tell him right there, but then I remember that this is only an Instagram live, he can't see or hear me.
I guess there's only one thing left for me to do. Call Gwen.

***

"Y/n? It's like two in the morning," Gwen answers groggily.
"I know," I say quickly. "Chase gave you something to give me. I need it."
"Right now?" She asks, slightly more awake.
"Yes, right now," I say, getting more impatient. "I need to know what it is."
She groans, and I can almost picture her getting up as she says, "I'll be there in ten."
I tiptoe out of my room, careful not to wake my parents as I rush down the stairs and out the front door.
While waiting for Gwen to show up, I pace the front porch. What could he have given her that's so important? Was the only thought running through my head.
After what feels like an eternity, Gwen finally parks in my driveway and walks up the steps with a yellow envelope in her hand.
She goes to hand it to me but pulls away at the last second, "why the sudden epiphany?"
"What do you mean?" I ask.
"Why? Why do you need this all of the sudden?" She holds up the envelope.
"Gwen..." I sigh, "I miss him. I love him. What if I screwed it up? Again? I just... I need to know what it is."
She sighs, "okay." She finally hands it to me and I eagerly rip it open.
First, a flash drive falls into the palm of my hand. I put that in the pocket of my hoodie as I quickly grab the papers out of it. The first one is a handwritten note from Chase:

Y/n, if you're seeing this, I'm already on tour. Maybe you've already listened to your voicemails and know how I feel, but I have to say it here, too.
These past few weeks have been hell for me. Worst than the last time we broke up. At least for me, it has been. I guess what hurts the most is that I don't know what happened. I thought things were going good... that we were finally together and... happy.
I don't know what I did, but whatever it is, I am so sorry. I never want to hurt you, and I hope you know that. I'm sorry for being a dick and demanding answers, I should've been understanding and given you space.
Included is my tour schedule, a vip pass, and something really important that you need to hear. The vip pass will get you into any and all of my concerts, should you choose to use it - which I hope you do, but no pressure.
Until then, I'll be walking around the cities with only half a heart.
Love, Chase