Falling for the Band Boy

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The plane ride home was lonely, I sat next to some woman. I just slept all day until I got home.

The mood here is somber, I hate it. I wish she were here so I could tell her I love her. I was to stubborn, and didn't tell her.

So now I'm sitting in my room staring at the wall.

*Dads Pov*

Macy never leaves her room, Cameron is out till three every night and Myself just work away my problems. Mac won't eat, won't leave or talk, it's been three weeks since Carly's death. I miss her, I wasn't thinking when I cheated. At the funeral, Macy didn't go, Cam went and just sat there and cried. I went then went straight to work, it reminds me of her the smells. Sights. Patients. I've lost one patient since I've been back, I was a little girl around the age of 5, she had a brain tumor. I went into the O.R and we worked for hours, we put in the stuff that made her tumor glow. It lit up her whole brain, through the hours it had spread and she died. Do you know how hard it is to tell a little girls parents that she died.

When Cameron called me, I was in the middle of checking a patient. When I picked it up I was shocked. I went to the house, it was surrounded by waling sirens and red and blue flickering lights. A sight I never want to see again, but Cameron's tear soaked face was something I hadn't seen since my dad passed away. I hugged him he said he had walked in and there she was at the bottom of the stairs, he couldn't describe her.

Macy got home and cried for two days, she would just cry and cry. Until one day she stopped and walked upstairs. I haven't seen her, she just goes to school then to her room everyday. The first two weeks she stayed home, then she started school yesterday. She didn't even try to get dressed nice, I said good morning to her she waved and walked away. I'm not even sure that she is going to school, but for now I have to go to work.

*Cameron Pov*

My Dad sucks. Thats all I have to say. You can find out on your own.

*Luke Pov*

It's been three weeks, five hours, and twenty seconds. That is how long Macy has been gone, and I miss that brat. I really do, even though she smacked us with the reality. I do miss her, but the guys are taking it hard also. Ash barley even talks, Cal just sits and stares at walls, Michael Is the worst. He goes to the gym and doesn't just sit there he boxes, and lifts weights. On concert time we kinda just fake all the happy stuff, and I know we barley know her but I see her like apart of the band.

We never got to the bet. I miss her I really do.

*Macy pov*

I didn't feel like what I said to the boys was very fair on their part getting smacked with reality in way that your not supposed to, but I do realize that what I said was rude. I was upset my mom had once told me, that's true singing is a hobby not a career. One day you could lose your voice and you wouldn't be able to sing, you wouldn't have an education either. So here I was sitting alone in my bedroom because I let go of the one thing that mattered to me right now, and I feel bad, but I feel even worse now that my mom is gone. I mean come on it's not fair to me or to anyone who loved her and I felt bad because I didn't even tell her that I loved her. I just told her basically that I hated her and then she died and it was my fault.

Being her only daughter I should've loved her, I should've told her that I cared. Instead I was just a pubescent teen who didn't understand, your parents could be gone at any given moment cherish time because they might be gone tomorrow. I wish I would've done just that but, for now just me getting through the loss of my mom, because I self go to school. Not that I really go, because there's no point. Everyone is there to see how perfect Macy Grace Lane is that's not fair to those who realize, I'm not Perfect.

Cameron sneaks out every night and doesn't come home until around three. Don't know what he is doing, don't know if it's crime, but I wish I did know. Instead of drinking or going crazy, Dad works all day, every day. I rarely ever see him, he doesn't even care that I haven't ate for 3 weeks, or that my weight is dropping. I just drink water, once a day, just to live but as for now, I just keep on sitting here because none notices.

*Nobody Pov*

As everybody mopes, no one cares comfort, go through this hard time together. Instead of going our own little ways, so that we can suppress the feeling of our loss or missing someone. It's like Macy, she feels as if she's lost everyone. Cameron he feels as if the world is over, he's lost his father as well as his mother all less than a month. He is just confused, he just needs someone to guide him and then someone there to help him get through it.