What I Thought I Knew

bad decisions

Kara was laying in bed texting Nate when Lacy came in, she had just finished cleaning up dinner. Kara ignores her, not really in the mood to defend her self. "Kara?' lacy says before sitting down on her bed across from Kara's. Kara waits a second before putting her phone down and turning her head to look at Lacy. "We don't think your a sociopath, I promise, we were just surprised, no offence but you don't really look like the 'i light schools on fire and shove girls into lockers' type. So it took us a moment to adjust, plus that whole comment about rich people kind of threw us."

Kara sighs, sitting up, "I'm not a spoiled rich kid, I just sometimes acted out to get my way because the evens didn't really pay attention to me, they treated me like a doll they could dress up in what ever narrative they wanted to tell, but when I wasn't needed they wanted nothing to do with me. I mean I guess it makes more sense now that I know that they had an actual daughter that I took the place of, but still it was hard. Exapecially when they put me in a new school my sixth grade year just because my mother or, Sarah, wanted to make friends with one of the mother on the PTA because she thought it would further her husbands buisness aspirations. So I lit the part of the Library that they had payed for to be remodeld. It was stupid and I know that, but I can't change it now." She explains, in more detail and Lacy nods.

"I'm sorry," she then crinkles her nose, "is it wrong that I kind of wish you had been arrested, just simply for the fact that you could have came back to us sooner?"

Kara laughs, "a bit yeah, but not really." Feeling a bit better to know that lacy doesn't think anything less of her after her earlier confession. Looking at lacy slightly conflicted, "why does Rose hate me?"

Lacy thinks for a moment before answering, "it's not that she hates you, she's just... Jealous, I don't it's complicated." She struggles to explain.

"Jealous?" Kara says, not believing that jealousy was rose's motive for not liking her.

"Jealous wasn't the right word, it's, more resentful maybe. You guys are eleven months apart, so you never really had the chance to be the baby, but for her, she had a couple years before Sophie was born, and when she was, she no longer had as much attention. Then after you went missing, she had even less attention, mom was depressed for a while, shes gotten better in the last couple year, I mean she still had her days. Dad isn't really here that much, and Charlie, her other half, he had friends and soccer. Most people associate her as the sister of the missing girl, like with most of us, and and she kind of hated that your kidnapping was all people associated with her. It was kind of like she blames you, but she also hated the fact that she blames you, because until last week, we thought he were either dead or in someone's basement, so when you show up, with a much different then we had thought you had..." She trails off letting Kara finish.

"Once again everything was about me, and I hadn't suffered the way she had thought so it made it okay to place her anger with me." Kara says, realizing that maybe her and rose were a lot more alike then she had originally thought.

Lacy smiles, "at least she hasn't set anything on fire."

Kara rolls her eyes and throws her pillow at her, they both laugh. "I'm never going to live that down, am I?" Lacy shakes her head.

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The next morning her mother and father drive her to school. Neither of them looking forward to the moment they had to drop her off, or the moment they would have to drive away. Nate had texted her saying that he was sick and that he was disappointed that he didn't get to see her on her first day back from suspension, but he would hopefully be better for their date. Kara looks up from her phone when her mother tells her that her Grandparents are coming this weekend to see her. "Saturday I have a date, we were planning to go to the movies."