Her life looks so good. She's got everything she wants in her life. The love of her life is everything to her and she shows it, but she forgets the downs that turn her whole life.
Dan she still sees the good memories of him or do the negative thing...
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RAFE DON'T STOP ON A HOUSE WARMING. I sigh again. "Come on, it's fun," he says enthusiastically. "what's nice about it" I throw my legs over his.
"Since when do you not like a party" he says with a laugh. In a way he is right, I really think parties are the best thing there is, but in the last year I hardly go to parties anymore.
Maybe because JJ always used to take me to parties. JJ and I usually had the most fun together. "Are you still there?" Rafe waves in front of my face. I'm going to lie out on the couch for a long time.
"You're not coming tonight either" he sighs again and grabs my hand. "I just don't feel like it" I shrug. "what's going on you seem like a completely different June" he rubs my leg.
" there's nothing I'm just tired" "it's because of JJ" I sigh. "It's not all about JJ" I take my legs off his.
"You've started behaving differently since you two had a fight" "I'm fine Rafe I'll come with you tonight" I sigh. "Do you mind if I go to the beach for a while?" he nods slowly.
"You know you can always talk to me" I nod and walk out the door. I walk towards the beach. I haven't actually walked on the beach in over a year. Usually I did it when I don't know what to do.
I feel the sand slide under my feet. The great open sea in my view. Hasn't it all gone too fast?
My father always said listen to your heart instead of your head. Did I do it right this time? Don't get me wrong I love Rafe, but it's not all too fast.
I sit in the sand. I also put my hands in the sand and slowly close my eyes.
"John b take care of your sister" "dad it will be fine" my older brother was holding my hand and in his other hand he is holding a surfboard.
"I know what I'm doing" he yells again to Dad. "Are you ready?" John b asks me. I nod slowly. John b slowly pulls me into the water.
John b has been whining for weeks when he can finally teach me how to surf. Dad thinks it's still too dangerous, but John b says he can do it easily.
"You are doing really well" exclaims John b. I take all the little waves. I try to keep my balance but also fall off again. Coughing, I rise again.
"I'm ready for today" I say softly. John b nods and we walk out of the water together. There is a man with two other children with my father. "June you were great" my father says proudly.
"You will be 1" says the other man. I hide behind my father's leg. John b gives the man a tough hand. John b has always been tougher than me.
Tears stream down my cheeks but I quickly wipe them away. I sometimes miss. How John b was always Bigger than me and tougher.
I get up slowly. I walk towards the chateau. I really love our house, but I miss the chateau somehow. I even miss the mess that JJ and John b always make.
I walk onto the porch. I open the door and JJ is on the couch. When he sees me, he immediately sits up. "hey is john b home?" I ask him and he shakes his head.
"oh okay" I look at the ground. "then I'll go again" I smile softly and turn around. "are you okay?" asks JJ. I slowly turn to JJ and shrug.
"I honestly don't know, but I'm sure it will be okay" JJ looks at me. "Do you have the key to my father's office?" "I think the office is open"
I nod and walk to my father's office. The office has remained intact all this time. It's still part of Dad. I grab the picture of him from the desk and sit in his chair.
I pull my knees together and immediately start to cry. Life isn't always fair. Why did he leave that day, why didn't he stay home.
I feel two hands grab my legs. I look up and JJ is crouching in front of me. I don't hesitate and fall into his arms crying. This is what I need. I need JJ.
"please stop hating me" I say crying. "I never hated you" JJ pulls me closer to him. I slowly let go of him.
"Then why did you act like that?" I say softly. "I thought it was easier to push you away than you push me" he says softly. " you have always been everything to me june. I had a hard time believing you left."
Somehow I regret leaving. "I know you love Rafe and he loves you, but you've always been my little sister I had a hard time with it" I give JJ another hug.
"Please don't ever do it again" I say with a smile. "I promise" he smiles back. "I didn't expect this" John b suddenly stands in the doorway with a huge smile. " come here brother"
