Affair to Remember

Fourteen

Demi

"Demi?" I glanced up at Matthew who was now sat in the booth opposite me. "You okay? I've been sat here for 5 minutes" his eyebrows raised as he lightly joked. The smirk on his face dropped as I just stared at him, a blank expression on my face. I released a breath as I glanced around the diner. My eyes settled on a family, a man and a woman with a young child, I'd say they were around the age of 4. I lightly smiled at the sight. "Okay, what's going on, Demetria?" I bit down on my lip as I glanced back to meet his gaze, his eyes were almost the same blue as Jesse's, that just reminded me of everything we'd done together. It was all a mistake. It shouldn't have happened.

"I've made a mistake" his eyebrows raised as he stared at me. Can I really tell someone about this? Will Matthew be able to keep this a secret?

"Dem?" I shook my head and released a breath.

"On-On the book that I'm writing, I-I've made a mistake" his face contorted in confusion. "It's gone in a different direction than what Kay wanted" I shrugged, glancing down at my hands as I played with my fingers.

"Are you going to tell me what you actually made a mistake on? Or are you going to leave me to believe this lie you just told me?" I swallowed down the lump in my throat, glancing back up to meet his gaze as tears lined my lower lid. "Dem. Honey, what's going on?" he reached for my hand, beginning to stroke the back of it with his thumb. "I'm your best friend. I'm your soulmate" I bit down on my lip as they twitched into a light smile to match his. "You can tell me anything, Demi. You know that you can" he gave my hand a gentle squeeze. I glanced around, hoping that no one was close enough to hear what I was about to confess to Matthew.

"I..." I turned back to him, a lump suddenly forming in my throat. "I had sex with my neighbour" a single tear slowly rolled down my cheek as Matthew's jaw dropped and he leant back against the booth. I prayed for the ground to swallow me up as he continued to stare at me with wide eyes. I could feel my cheeks beginning to burn. The noise in the diner started to drown out as I kept my eyes on Matthew, waiting for him to finally speak, for him to finally tell me that I've royally fucked up.

"J-Jesse?" I lightly nodded. "Fuck, Dem."

"Please, don't hate me" his eyebrows scrunched together as he leant back against the booth.

"Demi, why would I hate you? I'm still your best friend, that's never going to change. I just..." he shook his head. I continued to watch him, my heart heavy in my chest. "I thought you were happy with Wilmer? I know you said that you were having issues but I didn't think anything like this would happen?"

"Neither did I" I glanced down at my hands, my engagement ring and wedding band shining in the sunlight that shone through the bay window.

"What are you going to do?" he questioned after a moment of silence.

"I-I'm gonna tell him that it was a mistake, because it was. I can't-I can't let this ruin my marriage. I'm only 28, I can't get a divorce" Matthew kept his eyes locked with mine.

"But if you're unhappy with Wilmer, you should let him go. You can't stay married to someone you don't see yourself with anymore. That isn't fair on him, Demi, and it isn't fair on you. You both deserve to be happy" I bit down on my lip. "If you decide to stay with Wilmer, then maybe you should try marriage counselling. Tell him how you feel. See if anything changes and go from there" I released a breath as I quickly wiped at my cheeks. "I'll always be your friend, Demi, and if you ever need to talk with anyone, you know that you can always come to me" I flashed him a light smile just as our waitress came over to take our orders.

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I had felt a sort of weight lift off my shoulders after I admitted my affair to Matthew but the guilt still lay heavy in my heart. I've still cheated on Wilmer. I've still betrayed my husband and gone against my wedding vows. I still fucked my neighbour in my martial bed. I really have screwed up and I really need to end it.

I pulled my car into the driveway and glanced over at Jesse's house. His car was outside so that must mean he's in. I suddenly began to feel angry. He seduced me. He made me want him. I rolled my eyes as I climbed from the car, slamming the door behind me. I took in a deep breath as I began up his driveway. I tried my hardest to ignore the pounding of my heart that was beginning to make me nauseous. I knocked my knuckles against the door and inhaled. I need to do this. I need to end this. The door was pulled open and there he stood, wearing nothing but a pair of shorts. Everything that I planned to say completely disappeared. His lips twitched into a smile as he leant against the door. It took a moment for me to remember why I came here.

"Hi, I didn't expect to..." I pushed myself past him. "Okay" he sounded slightly confused as he closed the front door behind us.

"What happened between us last week was a mistake" I turned to face him, anger coursing through me. I didn't even register the confusion in his eyes. "I'm married, Jesse. I have a husband and I can't just throw that away for my fucking neighbour. This has to end. So, can you stop trying to seduce me" his eyebrows raised slightly.

"You-You think I did all the seducing?" he rolled his eyes and laughed as he placed his hand onto his chest. "You were practically beginning me to fuck you, Demi" my mouth opened but no sound came out. "You wanted me as much as I wanted you, admit it. You can't think that us fucking was all my fault" I glanced briefly down at the floor. My cheeks began to burn.

"It was just sex, Jesse" he laughed as I glanced up to meet his gaze.

"It was more than just sex, Demi, and you know that."

"It was just sex."

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