Affair to Remember

Seventeen

Demi

"Mmm, I love coming home to your cooking" I forced myself to smile as Wilmer's arms circled around my waist from behind. He pressed a kiss to my neck. I bit down on my lip as I tried to blink back the tears I felt forcing their way forward.

"I thought I'd surprise you."

"I love you, Nena" I nodded, sliding my hand over his.

"I love you too" I swallowed down the lump in my throat.

"I'm gonna have a quick shower, if that's okay?" I silently nodded. He pressed a final kiss to my cheek and then released me. I felt like I could finally breathe once he left the room. I stirred the sauce so it didn't burn as my thoughts began to overrun. I haven't spoken to Jesse since Wednesday morning, that not for lack of trying. He won't answer my calls or my messages, he won't even answer his front door. I try to catch him leaving his house but I haven't seen him once. He dressed so quickly after he announced that he'd fallen for me, he almost ran from my house. I don't know how to make any of this right. I don't want to break Wilmer's heart but I can't even force myself to let Jesse go. I crave him.

I released a breath as I removed the pan off the stove. I've made chicken and pasta with a tomato based sauce. It isn't much but it's Wilmer's favourite meal that I can prepare. I finished plating it up just as Wilmer stepped back into the kitchen. I forced a smile onto my face.

"Did you get up to anything whilst I was away?" he questioned as he took a seat at the table. I instantly felt my cheeks beginning to heat up. I shook my head as I slid a plate towards him. "Thanks, Baby. This smells incredible" I grabbed my own plate and took a seat opposite him at the table. "So, have you managed to do anymore writing?"

"A little, my inspiration keeps wavering" he nodded as he stabbed his fork into a piece of chicken. I kept taking glances at him as we quietly ate our dinner. I began to feel slightly sick at the silence because the silence makes me think of Jesse. "How was the trip? Did you manage to sort everything out?" he almost jumped at my voice. I bit down on my lip as they twitched at the corners. I managed to hold back my laugh.

"Yes. I hopefully shouldn't have to go to New York again, that still doesn't mean I won't be moved elsewhere" I nodded, staring down at my dinner. "I do ask them to try and find someone else, Baby. It was just such last minute and they couldn't get anyone else. I am sorry" I shook my head, smiling as I glanced up at him.

"It isn't your fault. You have to go where work wants you."

"I guess" I began to move my food around on my plate. We continued to eat in silence until Wilmer finished. He leant back in his chair and almost moaned. "Demi, that was amazing" my lips tugged into a smile as my cheeks burnt. I finished off with my own food and then grabbed Wilmer's plate so that I could clean up. Wilmer was seconds behind me, his hands roaming along my body as I rinsed off the plates. I never once felt turned on by his touch until I closed my eyes to push back my tears and Jesse popped into mind. Fuck. The only reason I let him fuck me and I enjoyed it was because I imagined he was Jesse. How fucked up is that?

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Me: Please answer my messages. We need to talk! You can't keep hiding from this.

I locked my phone after I deleted the message, lowering it onto my nightstand just as Wilmer stepped back into the bedroom dressed in his lounge pants. I flashed him a smile as he climbed onto the bed beside me, cupping my face in his hand and leaning to kiss me.

"I love you" he rest his forehead against mine, his fingers lightly caressing my thigh. He gave me a final peck and then slid under the sheet. I watched him for a moment before I climbed under the sheet beside him. He wrapped his arm around me and pressed a light kiss to my cheek. "Goodnight, Baby."

"Night, Wil" his arm remained slung over my stomach as his breathing slowly evened out. I continued to stare up at the ceiling unable to shut my brain off. I don't understand why Jesse is suddenly ignoring me. He basically admitted that he was in love with me and then he scurried off. Why is he the person with the issue? I released a breath as I slowly removed Wilmer's arm from around my waist and I quietly slid out of bed. Thankfully, he didn't stir. I grabbed my phone to find that I had a notification.

Jesse: Front door's unlocked.

I bit down on my lip as I glanced back at Wilmer who was gently snoring. I grabbed my sweater off my vanity and pulled it over my head. I checked on Wilmer as I slid from the bedroom but he remained fast asleep. I headed downstairs, locking the front door behind me and then walking around to Jesse's. His front door was in fact open so I stepped inside, the entire house was quiet.

"Jesse?" I called after I'd shut the door behind me.

"Upstairs" I locked the door and then began up the stairs. The closer that I got to Jesse, the more annoyed I was beginning to feel, maybe I also even feel a little angry. He left me without any explanation. He professed to loving me and then he just left.

"Jesse?" he stepped out of his closet wearing just a pair of boxers. I had to pull my eyes off him because the sight made something inside me stir. The silence around us very slowly began to grow uncomfortable. I eventually managed to force myself to speak. "Why have you been ignoring me?"

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