Amber (L.P)

Twenty Four

Liam

"I was just wondering," she continues.

I look at her intently growing more nervous by her stops and sighing. She just isn't getting the words out.

"I don't mean to make this awkward or anything but I just need to know what's up," she continues sighing once more.

"Amber would you just spit it out?!" I say laughing.

"Shut up!" She groans and hits my stomach, "I'm working up the courage!"

"I was just wondering why you happened to have kissed me the other week. I know you've been avoiding me because of it. That's not helping either of us out."

I knew this conversation would come if we were alone together. Of course she has to talk about it. I just don't want to be shut down, then I would lose her as a friend as well, and I hated that time. I imagine our kiss again, how perfect it felt and how badly I wanted to kiss her again.

"Liammmm" she sings snapping in front of my face taking me back to reality.

"Sorry," I shake my head.

"Well?" She inquires fishing for an answer. "Why did you kiss me? Was it a pity act because I don't need that."

"No no no, it wasn't a pity act. I didn't mean for it to feel like that." I jump, why would I kiss someone because I felt bad for them?

"Okay, then what does that mean?" She hesitates on saying her question.

"Well, it was a dare?" I say sounding more like a question I was hoping she'd fall for.

"A dare? You kissed me when I was feeling so heartbroken for a dare?" Her tone grows serious instead of the cute inquisitive one before.

I have no idea why that was the excuse that spit out of my mouth. Oh I'm so stupid.

"That was it? Who was your date with? Louis? Great. I thought I could come to you for help and comfort, you kiss me. And you leave me wondering, and you just messed it up again!" She shouts standing up off of my bed.

"No Amber, it's not like that. I just didn't, no it wasn't Louis. It wasn't like that." I stand up and grab her arm.

"No more storming off please, no more useless fighting!" I plead.

"Yeah, well you should've thought of that before you kissed me for a stupid dare! I thought you and your friends liked me, but I'm just a big joke to you guys. Especially you, I thought you actually liked me liked me. I like you so much, and that's what I thought and was hoping that kiss was for. Turns out you just don't care for ones feelings, and obviously I was wrong about your friends too. Don't ever speak to me again." Before I know it she's running down the stairs and out the door.

"Amber, no! Please no! I said the wrong thing! No let me explain myself please, I'm so stupid!" I run after her shouting. But she doesn't care and yet again doesn't give me a chance to explain myself.

I run down the street after her, not even believing what she just said to me. She actually liked me? I didn't know if she did or not, and now I just ruined everything again.

We finally reach her house and she runs inside and slams the door. I finally reach it and knock as hard as I can, "Amber, open up please!"

I keep pounding on the door begging for her to come back and open it for me. But she doesn't. No one else is home either, making things even harder.

I just need her to listen to me. I can't believe I thought lying would fix things. I try calling and calling her cell phone, only reaching the voicemail which I've already left several of.

I'm standing outside of her front door, calling and shouting for her. I'm not going to give up, not this time. I'm very determined and I get what I want. And I want Amber. No more waiting and waiting, I need to do whatever I can to make this girl forgive me.