The broken one

luck

"Adam i-i-"

He cuts me off

"You don't have to say it back" he smiles back at me

I just hug him tightly

"Thank you" I say

"For what" he asks

"For being here"

He just smiles and I smile back

"Do you want to do something"

I just shrug " sure"

"But what"

Adam smiles "everything"

I just smile

Adam then takes my hand and we end up at the park until around ten thirty at night then my auntie called and Adam walked me home,that night i fell asleep with a smile on my face.

Since that night its been 3 weeks and every day Adam comes over, since I haven't been at school. Aunt Alisca found about my depression my cutting my eating disorder so she is over obsessing overly watching me like if I shower for more then fifteen minutes she knocks and if I don't awnser she's coming in which is almost always because I don't have it in me to talk. Oh and I'm not aloud to lock any doors and no anything sharp she even moved the knifes to her room in a locked drawer but I know shes just doing it out of love.

I haven't talked to anyone in three weeks other then Adam I just tell him I'm fine.

She also is making me go to a thearopist every third day that is where I am now.

"So how's everything been" Jenna my thearopist asks.

Jenna has long curly ginger hair and blue eyes with dimples and if you look close enough you see little freckles,she's fairly beautiful I'm quit jealous of her beauty actually and she looks to be about twenty something .

I just shrugged I haven't talked to her yet.

"Well I need your help here I want to know how you feel"?

"I care" she smiles sweetly

"No you really don't give a fuck I could die and you wouldn't care nobody would and your just saying you care because it your stupid peace of shit job to say whatever it takes for me to tell you how I feel"! I yell

She just stays their looking at me shocked.

"And you know what I don't feel anything but anger" I say a little more calmed down.

"Why are you angry" Jenna asks calmly

"I'm angry because I constantly want to cry I'm mad because Alicsa took the only thing that gave me reilf away she took my razors away now I'm left to fend my mind by myself, and I'm mad because my demones won't shut up and, I'm mad because I want to feel something anything but anger and when Its not anger its sadness and that makes me mad because I hate being sad, and I'm mad because I have scares everywhere and I'm mad cuz I want to make more, I'm mad because everyone around me is happy and I'm not I'm mad at Alisca and Adam because they're making me stay on this god forbidden no good piece of shit hell hole called the earth. And I'm mad most of all because my parents left and they promised they wouldn't and I'm mad" my voice goes into a whisper

"I'm mad cuz I believed them"

A tear rolled down Jenna's cheack she quickly whipped it away

"Your parents didn't choose to leave they got taken off this planet by force"

"You dont know that" I say coldly

"I do because who would want to leave you nobody"

"Everybody" I say looking down

Jenna came over and hugged me I hugged her back we sat their for awhile "suicide is not the way out of your pain because when your looking down at the rest of us you'll see how sad we are and that will make you sad because you now you coused that pain".

I just nodded " im going to go" I say getting up

"Wait" Jenna says as I'm walking out

She kisses the silver necklace she is wearing,She then takes off the necklace that was on her neck the necklace was silver and it had a horse shoe and on the horse shoe were diamond. she smiles "
its for good luck everyday kiss it and it will help you"

I shock my head "i-i can't take this" she nods "it helped me when I needed it, it got me here to where I am to day" she puts it on me

And smiles "luck" with that I walk away.

"Luck"

Hey guys its me dorkyalert sorry for the slow update been busy my great grampas really sick in ICU so yah. Anyways thank you for reading tell your friend vote comment also follow my twitter @dorkyalert01