The broken one

Gone

Its been a month and I still haven't went to school or awnsered my phone and I signed the paper so the house is mine now.
I fully own my dads oil company but I co-own my moms clothing company I signed half over to my Aunt Alisca, who surprisingly is a pretty cool person.

I woke up and litterly rolled out of bed today is my moms and dads funeral.

I jump in the shower and shampoo and condition my hair with strawberry sent.

I then put on my black dress I don't want to wear a dress but Aunt Alisca says its only proper.

Anyway the dress it lace at the top and im wearing grey high heals a red purse and a black blazer. (Pic of dress on top)

I then apply some eyeliner and mascara.

And walk down the stairs already dreading this day I have to officially say goodbye to them I don't know if I'm ready to say goodbye.

When I get down stairs me and aunt Alisca didn't say one word to each other we just made our way to the car in silence then the car ride their was silent.

When we reached the grave yard I seen both their coffins side by side And started to cry I held in the tears in and looked straight forward soon everyone arrived and my aunt Alisca started reminiscing telling good old memories of my parents.

she started when my dad asked for my mothers hand in marriage my grampa (who is now dead) didn't approve but he asked my mom anynways and later my grampa tried to stop the wedding then he seen how they looked at each other and he new that his daughter would besafe with him.

My aunt then looked at me and I new it was my turn I got up and walked toward where my aunt was and stood their for awile speechless just looking around until my eyes met Adams I quickly turned my head and started "I first met my parents when they adopted me I didn't want them to though, I thought they were just going to be like my biological father.
I thought all people in the world were mean and cruel and I thought that everyone in this world only cared about themselves I thought that the world was a punishment for everyone" a tear rolled down my check

"But I was wrong so very wrong" I shake my head
"Words can't explain how wrong I was they were special from the very begining they were nice and caring and not that fake shit either, they truly cared you could tell they wernt fake, they were generily amazing and that scared me because well because I never had anyone that truly cared before so I tried to run away they looked for me for days they found me on a bridge I was a about to jump I was ready to jump"
a couple tears fell down I took a minute to calm my self down.

" I was suicidal for years but losing my sister took a toll on me she was the reason I fought then she left me and right then and thier i swore to myself I wouldn't get close to anyone that I would only hate everyone but something about my mom and dad made it so I couldn't hate them and I knew I would only hurt them so I new I had to leave. So I couldn't hurt them when I finally wrote my suicide letter I was ready to jump but that's when they both came running onto the bridge, i had no clue had they d found me but they did i guess fait.
I looked at them with tears in my eyes they both were sobbing bagging me to stop but I shook my head my mom then pulled away from my dad and said "please we love you please don't do this you don't want to do this we can get you help"
But I didn't want help I thought"

I start to cry I cover my mouth and shake my head.

" I stepped closer to the edge and looked down I seen the waves hitting against the rocks I stepped closer one more step and I would have been dead but then my dad fell to His knees and bagged me to stay he told me how he once was suicidal but them mom came along and saved him. I couldn't believe it.he told me he would save me. I was read to jump I went to step but I looked and seen the pain and fear across their faces and I knew i killed myself I would hurt them i stepped away from the edge and they came running taward me and hugged me"

I started to cry hard core this time

My voice was shaky but I didn't care "if- if -if it w-wornt for them I would have d-died they saved me."

I walk over to my parents kissed both of their coffins and sat back down crying aunt alisca hugged me and kissed my forehead when it was done I told aunt Alisca I would walk home i was the last one their imsat their and just starred and the sky blankly then I heard a throat clear I turned around and seen Adam looking down.

"Ugh hey" Adam spoke first

I didnt say anything what would I say?

"How are you" Adam asked

I just shrugged

He came up to me and hugged me

I hugged him back gentile and put my face into his chest

"Farrah?"

"Yah" I sniffle

"I know this is to early but"

I just keep looking at him

"I love you"

Hey guys sorry haven't updated in awild baby brother sprayed perfume all over I pad and broke it I took his o I'll be updating as much as I can vote comment follow thank you for reading