boys //ziam

chapter seventy-four

"what do you mean louis lied? how is that possible?" zayn frowns.

zayaad sighs internally. this is another reason he didn't want to talk to zayn. he doesn't remember most of what happened in the past, so it's inevitable for zayaad to avoid talking about a past that he wants to avoid.

"it's not something i'm willing to revisit again,"

"i'm sorry zayaad. i don't know the full story but i know how much you loved freddie," zayn says. "i can't believe louis would lie over something like that. it's so unlike him."

"i was so angry, for the longest time. i messed up zayn, freddie isn't my son but i was the only one he had and i abandoned him. he's back now and i don't know how to face him," zayaad says. "he still thinks i'm his father. he hates me."

"i don't think he hates you zayaad, have you tried reaching out to him?"

"no. why should i? what would i even tell him?"

"the truth,"

"the kid's like eighteen now. it's too late," zayaad replies. "and i don't want to be reminded of that time. it's one of the reasons why being around you is so... difficult. i'm just reminded of how much i failed you."

"you didn't fail me zayaad," zayn says. "you're my brother. i love you more than anything, nothing can come between us."

"i know," zayaad says.

"i wish you could stay," zayn says. "it'll make staying in this place more bearable,"

"i doubt your husband would be okay with that," zayaad says.

"do you want to stay? i can convince him," zayn says. "he tries so hard to please me."

"yeah, he really does. can't stand the guy but you should cut him some slack. this probably isn't easy for him," zayaad says. "and i can understand him. i'd do anything for harry too."

"you really love him? harry, that is," zayn says. "i wish i could remember him. i've never heard you talk about anyone this way before."

"yeah, i love him more than anything," zayaad says. "and i'm going to find him."

...

the next day, liam drives zayn to the hospital for his next doctors appointment. apart from checking on the baby, zayn also had an appointment with his neurologist about his memory loss. they did the routine questions and scanning. liam asks when zayn would get his memory back and he gets the same answers.

the baby is also fine, zayn looked disinterested when he gets the ultra sound done. liam was the one asking questions about the baby while zayn just scrolled through his iphone.

"why do you have a bored expression?" liam asks him.

"because i'm bored, i wanna go home," zayn sighs.

liam feels bad about that. todays doctors appointment was supposed to be special. it's the day they officially find out the gender of the baby. the old zayn was already sure it was going to be a girl, but the baby hadn't gotten far along to confirm.

now, the baby has. but liam decided not to find out the gender again. because it's no point if zayn isn't going to care. it hurts. but he should be used to that by now. he'll find out when zayn gets his memory back. he's hopeful of that.

the next place they go to is for zayn to get his cast removed. his bones weren't broken thankfully, his leg was slightly fractured and he had some bruises. but he's getting everything off today. liam can see he's more excited about that.

he's been healing very fast, and he can now walk without any help. he still limps a little but aside from that he's fine.

it ended up being a really long day, and after they get home they're both exhausted.