Levi x Reader [ oneshots ]

Past tense

△( Petra x ) Levi x Reader ( x Akashi )

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"I love you, Levi. " you said as you looked at him dead in the eye, as an attempt to penetrate his deeply buried heart once more.

You just needed him to know the depth of your words. Those 3 agonizing words that were full of nothing but desperation and longing for the man you achingly enamoured for, but that's vaguely what one type of love is, isn't it?

Painful, but much like a parasite, it's impossible when you try to detach yourself from it without help.

Levi though on the other hand had a slightly different outtake on this.

He felt as if he could soar the endless blue skies without even any help from the limited technology available, but at the same time, he felt as if he was free falling — like that weird falling-from-a-high-place dream that we've all experienced before. He also — oddly — wanted to explode with joy so much that he actually had to hold back the urge to smile and run around like a gleeful child who had just gotten many presents on Christmas Day, which confused him to the utmost since this was the first time he's had this much amount of joy when you professed your love for him to him.

It wasn't that he didn't love you back though, it was just that he didn't love you back that way. At least that's what he has always told himself — like right now.

Ludicrous is what that is, but it wasn't as if he could help it. It was how he was built to deal with things he couldn't understand completely, by pushing it away and using ridiculous reasons that contradict the real ones.

Awkward — that was how you felt because of how he was just staring at you but at the same time, into blankness as if he just went into a deep and probably colorful trance. You should've gotten used to this though because this was exactly was how it went down when you first confessed to him and along with all the other times too, but you never did and you're sure you never will.

Who ever does?

Not you, or Levi.

He should've used the time in between to create a speech or a point system on the numerous times that he had rejected your seemingly endless pit of love for him — but he didn't. It seemed cruel even for Levi, although he never was as cruel as people took his scary face for and you knew because that was the gun-shot point of your love for said man ; gun-shot point being the gun shot at the beginning of races that indicated 'get up and run' for the competing runners.

Funny how in other ways, you also always feel as if a gun had been shot into your heart every time he said no to loving you, no to being in a relationship with you and no to accepting you...but this time, you decided it would be different.

You had the power to, because it was your heart and your feelings and this time, you were going to protect it — protect it from him.

Getting over the thick awkwardness hanging in the air again, you spoke up, awaking him from the confusing thoughts his heart was overriding his logical brain.

"No actually, to be more precise — I loved you. I just wanted to let you know this one last time. "

Soft as cotton your voice was as you told him while tucking a group of hair—that escaped from the clutches of the back of your ear — back from where it came from.

Never did he realize how absolutely stunning you looked while doing that, so much that he had to bite down on the inside of his right cheek in order to direct the blood flow that was headed for his cheeks to the insides of it.