Salted Wound - Jamie Dornan and Dakota Johnson

Chapter 5 - It's Time To Laundry

I stood there, parked on the street, trying to recapitulate his words. "I won't forget the kiss." What does he even mean?
I started the car engineer and found myself driving back home.
What just happened today? You want a men you can't have Dakota, you have to forget about him, let him go.

I open my apartment door and place the keys onto the table next to it. I'm alone in the dark and I just feel so lonely right now. 'I won't forget about our kiss either Jamie' I say to myself. I don't want to let him go, that kiss was so intense, I could feel how much he wanted me. I want him too.
I fall onto the floor and instantly start crying. I hug my knees and I can feel the cold wall at my back. You have to forget, he is not yours. Think about that child that is about to born. Don't ruin his life. Let him go. I start to feel my eyes tired, so so tired that I fall asleep right there on the floor.

My alarm clock starts to ring but the sound of it it's lower than usual, a lot. I open my eyes and look up. The sun is brightening trough my living room window and it is more then welcomed. I pick up my phone and turn the alarm off. I have one hour to get ready and be at the set so we can start shooting some of the movie first scenes. I'll see him. The though makes me smile for a bit but immediately it fades away. I have to keep it professional, none of those amazing kisses anymore, he is married. I get up and run into the bathroom to take a shower. Today will be a long day.

***

I arrive at the set earlier today, for some unknown reason I managed to arrive before the time. I find Maria on my way to my trailer.

"Good morning Miss Johnson!" she looks surprised "I didn't expected you to be here at this time, I still don't have your coffee..."

"It's okay really, don't worry, and good morning for you too" I say facing her "You know what? Actually Maria take the day off, I won't need you today. Take some rest and I'll see you tomorrow."

"Miss Johnson are you sure about it? I can st--"

"Yes, I'm sure" I say interrupting her "I'll see you tomorrow" I smile.

I enter my trailer and find a huge amount of paperwork in my table. Shit the reunion with Maria yesterday, I forgot. I scan through the papers and find them all reviewed, she must have gone through them all by herself. I'm glad I sent her home for today.
Suddenly a knock comes on the door, Maria must have forgotten something. I rush to the door and my jaw drops to the floor when I open it. Jamie. He has no beard on. Omg...

"Can I come in?" he asks entering my trailer.
He shouldn't be here.

"You already have" I say emotionless. It needs to be this way or otherwise I'll break in front of him, I need him so much.

He stares at me while I close the door. "What do you want Jamie?"

He breaths for a moment then says "I know you felt it too, the way we kissed... It wasn't just a kiss between friends, it was more Dakota."

I stop breathing. This was not what I had imagined in my head when he first arrived here. I thought he would be saying how wrong it was last night and that we seriously had to forget about it and move on. I already had a line in my head 'Last night was wrong in every sort of way, we need to forget about it and move on. You're married."

"You won't say anything?"

I look over at him and his piercing grey eyes. What can I possible say?

"You're married." I say. "last night was a mistake, we should forget about it."

"And what if I don't want to?" he says to me almost in a plead. Oh god it's breaking my heart.

"Gosh... You're having a baby Jamie..." I look away from him "Please just leave"