Preferably In Bed Sheets

04/03

It's been over a week since the Black Nails concert and its been over a week since I talked to Jessie. I missed him but it didn't matter because he isn't mine to miss. I threw myself into my school work, finishing off my art assignments and completing English Essays.

I felt stressed to the bone but it was better than pining over Jessie. I was finishing a sentence off about Scout's representation of innocence in Maycomb when I heard a knock on the door. I turned to see Paige and Robin stumble in, trying to be as quiet as possible. Trying.

I felt quite self conscious with Robin in my girly room. The only boy I've had in my bedroom was Jessie but that was different because we were so close. Robin and I are only friends because of Paige, she is our only topic of conversation, well her and music. Although, by the look on his face, he seemed as uncomfortable as I was.

"So we're going to the carnival and we're bringing you with us," Paige stated playing with the curls in her hair.

She wore a red plaid shirt over a plain white crop top. She had on a pair of black ripped skinny jeans from Forever 21 and red converse. She completed her attire with a black backpack and was also wearing Robin's grey beanie to hide her beautiful curls which she hated and I loved. Her outfit was so simple yet she still looked a dream. Classic tumblr girl.

"Am I though, am I really?"

"Yes Delilah. You can't hibernate forever, you'll get sick or some stuff of caterpillar..."

Paige became distracted by my flashing phone. I could tell she was reading the text I've received. Nosy bitch. I lifted my phone from my bedside cabinet to read the text myself. Before I could get through it all there was a tap on my window. Paige automatically crossed her arms, ready to jump to my defence.

Jessie slid the window up and climbed in, a little surprised to see Paige and Robin. His eyes met mine for the first time in a week and I was aware of how easily I could fall in love with them again.

Jessie had this glow about him and I knew it was because of how happy he was. Happy because of her. It hurt to know he's been so happy while I'm in such a depressed state. If anything it should be reversed roles.

"Hey guys, what you all up to?" he asked casually, as if everything between us wasn't totally awkward.

"We are about to go out and so are you, only back out that window and to your own home!" Paige snapped, shaking her head in such a sassy tone. I mentally applauded her.

"Delilah could we talk for a minute? In private?"

I looked at Paige for guidance but she was too busy shooting bullets at Jessie's head. I could see Robin behind her encouraging me to go by flicking his hands. I smiled graciously at him before joining Jessie on the fire escape.

"So, how have you been?"

Horrible. Miserable. I miss you. "Great."

"Good good. I kinda miss you, like a lot and I don't know. I think I wish you miss me too I guess. I don't suppose you do, do you?"

So much I can barely breathe. "A little."

"Good because I want to be friends again if that's okay with you. And I want you to get along with Katie, I was wondering if you could properly meet or something. I know you probably don't want to and you'll probably not do it for my sake but if there is the slightest chance you want to, you know where you find me."

Jessie kissed my forehead before returning back to his room. It all happened so fast I barely had time to take it in. He wants me to meet Katie because he wants to be friends again? Meeting Katie is certainly not what I want to do, but I really miss Jessie.